Tears stain my face
Caught in my own shadow
Little one I feel you move in my belly
I feel you
I feel you feel me
I hope I give you the safety you need to feel
Need to have…to survive
Praying for you
That you will be safe from all the paths I traveled upon that has lead me here
I know there is a easier way
Maybe not easy but it doesn’t have to painful or full of struggle
Little one I hope I have not scared you …imprinted you with my own faults
That I work so hard to rid myself from
These human coils
What d I do?
I have came so far… I pray you wont trace the routes I took to find grace
You have it now
You are perfect
You are divine
You are loved
You have to do nothing
You just are……
Little one I wish I was taught this
I wish I would have known … I have wasted so much time
Here I am waiting for you
I hope I make you feel loved.needed and wanted
Something I cant recall from my mother (bio)
I cant recall anything about her… not her eyes
Not her touch
Her scent
Her grace
Her voice
Nothing except that she was not capable of caring for me
I was sent to a family that could. very lucky yet crave …hunger.. to remember
To remember what I will consciously give you
All my love
My devotion
My faith in you in our family
A orphan has her own family now
It is my responsibly to make things right
Im sorry if I haven’t been the best mommy
I feel like I haven’t because of my pregnant emotional instability
I don’t mean to imprint you with anything harmful
You must understand
I do try….
I hope we always get along. always find our love in the midst of any disagreement
I love you.. you were made of love. you are love
