October 9th, 2005
entertaining
I thought I would stop and say a few words today , for I havenot been writing daily here and thought any words or thoughts would suffice.
I love entertaining. I mean cooking and having dinner partiesand tea parties. I know it sounds quirky but really it is a lot of fun. Having peopleover chatting eating divine food and having a spot of tea. Usually I would saya fine wine but I m pregnant and I quit drinking permanently anyways so tea itis.
I have cooked for my parents today, amazingly so fareverything has gone not too bad. Yes the subject my favorite thing to argueabout came up homebirth vs. hospitals with my mother but actually she is veryhelping now in trying to help find a mid wife for the hospital but soon I hope Iwill convince her otherwise. hahaha all a part of my grand plan.
Very hungry today and awaiting my scrumptious food I haveprepared lovingly.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 05:14 am care to comment
October 8th, 2005
love child
I fell its important to recognize and made very clear to our unborn and to the energies surrounding that our child was not created as a love child. Now I think this term is very deceiving because little one you were conceived from love and only love we welcomed you and awaited your presence. As both being adopted and have knowing what it felt like the initial shock of being a “love child” a child created out of recreational or lustful sex not planned nor welcomed. I always felt unwanted because of this knowledge at such a young age.
Our little bean we love you and that’s why you are here because we love each other so much that nothing else matters except the pursuit of love and welcome you in along for the adventure.
You are the ultimate creation on all of our parts including the divine.
Little one I have been feeling the first kicks in my swelling belly. It feels funny but I like it , it makes me smile.
I have recently today had really a lot to say about everything im glad because I have kind of been in a void and a empty space of regenerating my creativity.
I see now that pregnancy is a time of weeding out all garbage that could potentially interfere with parenting properly like personal hang ups instead of seeing things from proper judgment.
So yea been thinking about the past . urk. Will it ever end? Not sure. why I torture myself by looking back and pretending that we knew of each other in a time that was designed for further growth apart making and paving the way for our destined appointment to intertwine fates and souls forever.
I don’t know.
Im hungry and waiting for my food to cook. Yum .
Posted by ripewithbaby at 12:50 pm care to comment
slightly caught up
I read words never meant for my eyes, they cover me in filth.
As slowly I begin to feel bitterness.
Although my life I have had many substitutes for what I was longing for ….love
Unfortunately I find no common thread with these people. Not enough to even say hello if spotted in a crowd.
Feeling just as important as a black book filled with numbers and quick references of whom it belongs to. just like another page in a history book. Being overlooked. Not given even its own book or place to be separated from all that came before . so the past settles to close for I am bitter.
I do not see my self as just another part of this circle but a major link to keeping it together and I demand respect and recognition.
I have came a long way to be where I stand today, fully clothed and full of respect.
I shall never settle for less that the best because that is what I deserve.
There are so many thing I wish I could keep my child from in this world that seems so bitter and perverted. How do I be that example to keep my child from having to experience the same pains as I did. Im not sure this is possible.
I had dreams of being in a strip club again. It fills me with rage. Whores and nasty teases that say well im lonely looking for love but if they had love they couldn’t keep it because if they loved themselves there would be no such actions. Bills or no bills.
A while back it was tempting but how could I have forgotten the perversion and sickness in such establishments. Sure it can be seen as art. But im not sure these days I see it that way. What we are selling ourselves like a lady in a window in france (oldfrance) ? like that’s ok?
And why are these poor examples of women held so highly given respect? I m not sure I understand. I used to be that girl and i had the best damn stage show in this crummy town or could i go as far saying mabye close to any where on stage blowing every mind that caught a faint glimpse of what they saw from me something elusive and could never be caught. A caged animal waiting to chew some one to shreds.
Beautiful? Disgusting. I protest these filthy establishments that allow women to degrade themselves to every whim of those sickening men.
So what I hold not much respect for the past. Other than I got through and it has lead me to better places and avenues to reach higher levels of consciousness.
Ok so I know my diet has been pretty bad recently but you know im not feeling guilty being pregnant it different and quite hard to say no to your cravings. Im healthy and I have been a vegetarian since I was 8 or 9 due to allergies so good.
I don’t believe in being fanatic about diet its not necessary not at all.
Everyone needs something to be fanatic about I souppose.
Connections are fading fast not that it matters really a loner at heart anyways.
People get in the way of me reaching myself .
You know I m not some farm girl that has lived a sheltered life never having enough courage to leave the nest I have lived very fully for my age and I m proud of my wildness in my younger years.
But you see I have nothing to prove or to compare storys with or wildness with good for you who ever you are. I don’t care I don’t give a damn stop telling your story because it really doesn’t matter, its boring.
My gypsy blood running hot again something to tame me down. Ive never been grounded or settled ever. This is all very new to me.
I feel like a badger, dolphins or maybe a pit bull. Feeling territorial. sending out the message get too close and its over for you anyways you will feel the wrath. If you dare let the dark one out to play sending nothing but destruction and chaos yourway!
Im not playing and im joking.
Get too close say the wrong thing go ahead you shall see.
How can i be disgusted by someone’s experience of life. is it some bitter jealously afraid that there are more gaps to fill more foot steps to over ride in the sands of time all ready? Having to do much more than they?
to mean more to be better for there is no recigition like there is for others so im bitter and thats ok.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 08:07 am care to comment
October 4th, 2005
providing
Yes now my hormones have indeed flared out totally.
Being pregnant totally emerged in emotion and worry about providing and nurturing.
I thought of yes the unthinkable today. Re tracing a path that I have already walked and
I m still recovering. Sometimes money just worries me I have my moods where I feel
So anxious I almost hypervenaltive over the situation. my loving wonderful husband loving reassures me that money is not that important and that everything is ok.
I really cant believe I would ever have thought of placing myself and our unborn in such filth just to bring home large amounts of cash.
Thoughts I will never think again and now I m ashamed of even the thought.
I know everything is ok I just sometimes get worked out about providing.
But I feel better about it now I think just to get it out of my system.
I feel better.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 07:40 am care to comment
September 30th, 2005
septembers last day
Last day of September .
This year has gone so quickly it seems. Last year where every moment seemed to be aeternity
This year I can not find myself clinging on to every momentwhere each day passes so quickly.
The beauty of change. Little one I had dreams of you lastnight.
I could pull you out to see you seemed to be the size thatyou are now and you were sleeping
Soundly all curled up and peaceful. So I put you back insidemy womb.
I m glad to dream of you. I love you. we love you so verymuch
So I have been really having a tough time with my emotionshere the last week
I would say. It has been tough. It seems I m letting go of some early traumas and re living themin some weird way
Re living my early childhood preparing myself to become themother I m capable of being.
And remembering all the ways of being I will choose toavoid.
Jonny has been so supportive and I m very thankful for this,sometimes its hard and I m gladI m not alone in this. new un familiar territory thatcan be scary. Emotions can be well indeed on overload at times.
i cant wait til you meet your father. he is so wonderful little one , so wonderful!
he loves you very much and is so excited as well as I about your arrival.
and of all that has yet to be.your father is going to be the best father that there
is.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 11:32 pm 1 comments
the words to say
hello little bean.. i'm sorry that i haven't wrote much to you in these early sessions.. i really wan't to leave for you some words that one day will be a treasure to find.. well i'm sure that they will eventually come to the surface.. and you should be too.. they always do.. the creative process is just that.. a creative process.. process.. it is really spontanious and mysterious though.. even our own creations.. as in a great way you are my and your mothers creation.. yet you have a life of your own.. you are blessed and sacrade.. becoming what that is that you will become.. oh.. i am sure that something will emerge in these leading days of your gestation.. that will offer you a great insight into what life was like in the womb.. what were all these sounds and feelings.. as today i throat sang to the belly and listened for you bouncing around in there.. i don't know for sure.. but i think that was you..
Posted by ripewithbaby at 12:45 pm care to comment
September 26th, 2005
catch up
It has been a long time since I have written anything.
I have well on my 11 week a few weeks back was the peak
Of my morning sickness so I think that’s when I stopped writing.
Just by being consumed by my constant nausea.
I have painted a few more pieces. I have been getting a little bit
More energy than I have been feeling.
Just wanted to catch up on a few things.
We went to my family reunion today , not many peeps showed up
That’s cool though we ate food went to my grandmothers and ate
More food! O my I can still eat… eeek!!!
So yea that’s whats been up.
Ive baan catching up on house work. Sleeping.eating and napping. J
Posted by ripewithbaby at 10:12 am 1 comments
September 16th, 2005
chattery talk
You are a Samurai The ancient Samurai is world renound and has beenreveared through out history. The true esenceof the Samurai is in aiding and fighting forthe good of others as well as themselves. Itwas custom for the training of the ancientSamurai to begin their training early in theirchildhood and to be trained to be true mastersof every aspect of life of the people theyprotect. This ment that the training of thesewarriors included cooking, gardening,carpentry, weaving, and much more in additionto combat and the honorable code of theSamurai. Any that follow the path of a Samurai, regardlessof their training, are warriors of the people.This does not eliminate actions for personalgain, that is the path of a martyr, but itsimply means to help those that you can, whenyou can, however you can. That is the true pathfor the samurai warrior. The Warrior That You Are (or what kind of warrior are you)brought to you by Quizilla
i love these cute little harmless quizzes
Ok now I see clearly why it is I love living away from people I know and family. Really it is nice. Sometimes you miss them but more than often you love your personal freedom to just be and not hear their same old same over and over.
Im so gal dim not like my parents and will never choose to be.
I choose to eat healthy food fill my temple with the best to give me optimal performance from my body. I m perfect just the way I am and I don’t give a damn what others say or beg to differ. It doesn’t matter to me. because I m on fire and I will just blaze right on through you. like water on fire I m unstoppable. You know today my mother was again trying to persuade me to well go to the hospital and have my child min a conventional way I m so sick of hearing it I m sorry I m going to have to be cut throat and not are.
God I m fabulous.
People and the i ignorance I can handle ignorance it is my purpose not to deal with it or allow others to pull their crap with me.
Un evolved people don’t understand me and thats ok with me. I guess. I just don’t like to be around lower energy people less evolved folk. Because everything you say is opposition and a challenge against what thy believe and where they are because they don’t understand.
You know when i was young I was on fire nothing could stop me I was a burning forest wild fire wild and free true to my self nothing could stop me. I tamed down as I have gotten older but not lost my fire and I love to let my self shine. But I sure clear the past just watch the people run , ha too intense they say. Well I say too boring liven up!
Anyways.. what im saying is that I think its kind of sickening when people know you for so long like family and friends and then its like they don’t even see you or want to hold on to a image that’s not there or even real a figment of the past.
Grumbles under the breath I can hear all these mumbles from your brain I really can I m silent and hear you speak. Its amazing. I can feel the pressure. Don’t try and persuade me don’t do it. That’s all the warning you should need. And no its not a threat a threat is something that could happen but o it will happen if you persist on pushing just you watch and see. I m done. I m a wife and a mother now I m whole and un containable and beautiful. Out of the way please… thank you
Ahh. Random thoughts spilling out to the page like water color drizzled with rain melting into one another from every direction. Never ceasing to amazing my ever questing mind.
I love my self care treatment my self love program as I call it I know everyone has one well should have one. Things you do to pamper your self. I buy vicitora secrect lotions and smelly potions and prettys and I nurture myself in a warm candle lit bath. Remember and tell my self just how fabulous I am and that everything is as it should be.
Self love. Self care. Time with myself. I paint and read and make books with pictures and scrapbooks.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 10:09 am care to comment
September 15th, 2005
mother
You Are From Mars
You're energetic, althletic, and totally hyperactive. You love playing sports and being in the middle of all of the action. You're independent, corageous, and brave. Unafraid to do things your way. Mars can be reckless, quick tempered, and a little too spontaneous. So think before you act - and resist your natural urges to dominate others.
What Planet Are You From?
Today I speak of beauty .personal self beauty. Accepting the beauty of others and knowing that no other is as i. sure this realization seems to be clear for some but to really have a realization that I have masked my beauty most of my life to fit in to the ugliness of the world. Refusing this belief any longer and demanding to live among all things beautiful.
So I look in the mirror like any other day and not only do I see my self maybe some resemblance of my mother face that I have never seen or seen with eyes not old enough to remember her face. Studying my features with a questioning mind which features are my mothers and which are my fathers. High cheek bones maybe my fathers. My up turned nose maybe my mothers. And wondering et which features of us will be passed to our beautiful baby?
My mothers face I m sure it was beautiful ,maybe worn with worry but beautiful. My fathers face his embrace when was the last time he held me with his strong gentle arms? I cant imagine the feeling of letting go for the last time and knowing it maybe be forever.
So romantic but it was not just a storybook tale of love and the ultimate sacrifice it is my life’s story.
I will not let anyone or anything rip my child from my arms. A kind of promise to myself I made a long time ago. If or when I ever choose to create children I had so many ideas of what was so crucial to development and a happy child.
Maybe someday I will see my mothers face and be held in her embrace only shortly even it could be just a second. And my father I m sure I m a lot like him I know it. I have his fire coursing through my blood.
I have decided to transform my physical appearance again. I m waiting for my hair to finish going to a light straw color so I can go a bright bright red J now not to say ill be back to my normal color in a month(ebony) but hey it kills the boredom I have with the same hair everyday something new probably not permanent but hey its fun.
Im depressed and sad im hungry and I cant eat because I feel like throwing up I feel sick j no matter what I eat I wish I would feel better!!! I don’t want to eat because of it.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 07:58 am care to comment
Thursday, February 09, 2006
November 1st to October 9th
November 1st, 2005
anyways so my kicks are getting stronger and more noticale and i find it beauitful to feel such movement.
today is all souls night and it feels like it , the veail is thin and i feel connected to the other side grovvy hunh?
i cooked up a feast for us today and it was yummy over the weekend we attented a party at a friend of mines house and there were so amny people i have not seen in years but out of this came some reealizations other wise i would have been missing out on. just the lameness of the people i know and what their standards for fun really is and how drinking seems to be the biggest thing on everyones list and why was i ever envolved with such loosers? yikes! anyways.
we felt above them all hahahah!!!!
anyways our babyim sure is going to love halloween but going to try to cut the limit of candy well going to try the no candy thing and use otehr methods of yummy ness rather than ickky food.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 07:28 am care to comment
October 28th, 2005
so it is
So it is, another year has came around again. Leading us to Halloween Shamin the Celtic New Year. A time of remberance and reflection within ourselves of what come to pass and what is yet to be. My favorite time of year , the leaves of the summer Turing to a burnt orange and bright buttercup yellows. The air crisp and chilled with winters arrival.
Time to look back not in regret but in respect to the path that we have chosen to follow and to cart our growth. Evolution.
My tummy is growing now enough for even strangers to suspect that Im pregnant and ripe.I have just exited a not so good diet,well it wasn’t horrible but bad enough not to record.
I have been craving healthy food once again. I was kind of not even interested in any raw food for a while I couldn’t eat it. Now again its what I prefer.
I made homemade celery soup (soy) yesterday and it was so yummy today I ate Mexican food ok not so healthy considering most Latinos are very over weight but it was yummy.
My leg cramps are out of control and quite painful.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 10:01 am care to comment
October 27th, 2005
insisting parents
this is what our baby looks like now.
So I find this amazing,truly. So so parents just naturally think because you and your mate are having a baby that they are automatically up on your list or something? Like to them that means that they will see their “grandchildren” and stuff a lot. Actually no, think again, this is how its gonna be just like this. You want nothing to do with me and my life because you disagree with the ways I have chosen to live and raise my child so then you think it gives you reason to see us more. Absolutely not! Especially after this kind of treatment our child WILL not be in or around a aggressive negative confrontational environment like I was raised in. why whole I subject our child to what I have been my whole life trying to heal myself from? Not going to happen!
Posted by ripewithbaby at 08:04 am care to comment
October 22nd, 2005
gloomy day
Today was so gloomy no sun just rain and clouds but I really enjoyed it.
Do you remember that song “the cats in the cradle and the silver spoon”? we sang that song in 3rd grade I never understood the meaning of that song I guess when your young you don’t. the story is about a a son and a father . the son growing up and grower further away from his father. His father wants to reach out but by the end of the story the son had grown up and they never had the time.
It seems like forever I have been trying to fix me and my parents relationship but like this son instead of the son never having time or having the realization that his father just wanted to connect. My parents never have the time. Never had the time.
Not that it matters but it hurts. You go out of your way to mend or try and get time back that you lost when you were young and from the other there is no interest. ( sigh)
Went shopping today J I ate at red lobster today and I must say their food is so typical of a corporate establishment, bland and tasteless. Its hard to find a good restaurant in this town especially when all you want is veggie dishes.
I cleaned so much today I did too much today im tired.
I cut my hair the other day because im growing my hair out. I know what a contradiction actually it was to even everything up and all one length Jim very happy with it
Anyways so I started my own business selling Organic Natural Botanical Makeup and skin care products as well as self care. Its not like crappy Avon I used to sellAvon buts it not really your business your just someone else’s bitch with Avon.anyways. so I invested and I m making this my own and im going to the mall I think? Just a little spot . and because im not desperate for money I seem to find more joy in this than vs. being totally broke and needy. You know.?..
Fridays suck.i mean I really don’t care for them all too much. My lovely is gone selling pizza all day and I miss him.our home looks so beautiful. Its really coming together now , it has taken a while like things usually do but all the pieces in place.
We are going to re paint the nursery but we are going to find out what we are having I think girl but I just want a healthy loving child. That’s all a parent could ask for.
Whibleton is a poop monster. My little puppy (minnypinny) we just got him like 2 weeks ago loves to poop everywhere eek. Its gross. I think im going to buy him puppy bloomers!
Im gonna rest ,chow
Posted by ripewithbaby at 12:37 pm 1 comments
October 21st, 2005
crashing
So now my pregnancy, each day it get a little bit more harder to keep myself and hold myself together. The hormones are raging and I seem to be out of control randomly. I know whats happening and I cant seem to help it its really like riding a roller coaster or surfing. You ride the wave take it where it leads but don’t struggle in the wave or you will surly drown. Its not really that bad ok I guees it is during that time but its still over whelming.
Anyways…My dogs get on my nerves sometimes so much! Grrr. Begging for a pregnant persons food. What kind of weird o does that?lol. they are constantly needy drinking out of toilets chews up my plants crapping randomly animal filth. Eeek! They really annoy me totally!
Yum food has been good to me now im long since past the morning sickness of the first tri mester I can eat J and my appetite is monstrous.
I was under weight before I was pregnant(99 pounds) so now my weight gain is not even where im supposed to be. J loosing weight wont be bad because I will look fabulous anyway!
Posted by ripewithbaby at 11:55 am 1 comments
October 19th, 2005
little one
Dear little bean,
My thoughts waltz through my mind today like the burgundy and orange tinted leaves slowly making their way across the street.
An autumn day upon us here and gone so fast.
Just as time usually does ,being almost half way through little bean soon enough we shall meet. And we will be a family all together.
Everyday it seems little one I see so much surfacing. I guess I never even scratched the surface.
I remember when earlier this year my life seemed to fall apart at the seams. Every single thing was falling and crashing down. NO structure, no balance, no safety net. Little one I must tell you your mamma wasn’t sure that she was going to make it. There was much I must say I have to tell.
There I was in a state thousands of miles away from any familiarity and stranded. Alone, sacred and desperate to find a way to live. When you choose to stop listening to your self, when you stop doing things that you please and become a self made slave you have nothing. You have to start over. With nothing but the truth facing you. Nothing to fear little one, really there is nothing to fear. Don’t ever forget the joy within your heart. Things happen in life sometimes we have no explanation for and sometimes it leaves our heart feeling empty and even broken. You little bean you shall never be broken always keep that love in your heart. The wonder in your eyes and the light within your spirit.
How I love you.
My prayers were answered when I let go. When I didn’t care when I jumped off the cliff with out looking what was below. Trusting that like cats I would not only land on my feet but somewhere wonderful.
regrets are a waste of time
There is nothing that leaves your life for no reason,when people or things leave its only because the promised law is that something better is on its way.it may not be in one day or one year but little bean never give your faith up for nothing. Because sometimes little one faith is all we seem to have.all along the way to where I am today I have waited prayed and hoped many endless moons for the light at the end of the tunnel.
Little one we are the light. I must say sometimes I do get caught up even still after everything. I can not lie. It is the truth the reality of my experience
Posted by ripewithbaby at 08:55 am care to comment
October 13th, 2005
whimbleton
Because I have not been writing exactly everyday anymore I have not spoke of love in a while.In a world of corruption it seems love is the only thing that is really real.
Yesterday we got the puppy I have been wanting for years it seems. Finally in my arms. Kind of like the longing for your unborn child but yet patiently waiting.
I was thinking about another kind but I really don’t like bugged eyes . eek! I got a minny pinny J a little boy named …. Whimbleton that’s Ambassador Whimbleton to you.
It brings my heart do much joy and my heart chakra loves it. Opening so wide and shining. Hes such a cuddle bug and buttercup seems to enjoy his company.
he is so very precious and nice to sleep next to cuddled inbetwee you and the pillow. This is going to be a pampered baby. hes so... tiny!
i love him so much. i really have to thank my husbund for being so soupportive and willing to have another pup.
john is so lovely. making everyday more meaningful and worth every breath.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 10:52 am care to comment
to the point
When was it acceptable to make your own family feel full of guilt pointing out certain individuals in that family placing blame and guilt trips to try and please everyone except the most very important person your self?
I hear ,o your grandparents will drop over dead with a heart attack when they find out what you are doing. O well ...Well great i say, there is nothing that I haven’t already done , and this will shock everyone? Because I choose to do the best thing for my health and my child?
I do care , and that why I have choose what I have.
Since when have I shocked anyone?
OMG that’s the funniest thing I have heard or said all day!
Give me a break , seriously.
It still does not take away from the fact my parents have never been supportive and only had the desire to control not to console .
There was a time for the pain and turbulence I experienced in my time with my parents and much was learned out of it. I think for those reasons, for the wisdom that I pulled out of it.
Breaking karma. Freeing ourselves from the negative ties that held us to any negative person or situation.
Its amazing I see the pattern run over and over again in this family. Struggling for power because no personal power is owned or even understood only envied and feared.
Everyone want to be a part of this child birth and its like they think that some how they really are connected to this child.
Why would I choose to place my very own flesh and blood in the same environments that enslaved and jaded my impressionable fragile childhood?
Taken years and still working through the mess.
The sad truth of the matter is that we are the parents. We are no longer held under by parents that are more like dictators than role models.
Given the opportunity to free and break the cycle of ignorance and poverty on every level.
I sill find m self angry. That my parents still don’t understand me and all I ve ever done was give them the chance to watch me shine.
There really is no common ground.
I have always sought my self through the lies that they built around me. Never settling for the “simple” life and simplemindedness that they choose to participate in.
So I have been trying to mend the broken bridges of my me and my parents relationship
Consistently for 2 years, and I feel I have got no where. Not any further than from where I began.
This is important , because many valuable lessons are being poured from this.
In preparation for parenthood these issues I feel must be resolved and let go. Thats why its so important. So there is no distortion in raising our baby because of our own childhood wounds. Being pregnant really makes these things surface, face to face all your own hidden wounds.
It wouldn’t matter so much to me if I wouldn’t have put so much of myself into mending so many broken ties to my family. I guess the average person does not know the story between us. 4 Years ago I was ready to sue my parents and take them for everything we didn’t take for a few years in a bitter silence and court dates.
Im not attached to my parents or even slightly care what they think. It is so wonderful when you have family that has your back.
This time there are so many things more important than proving a point its about settling the score and letting go.
Our child is coming over to this side and there is no more time for bitterness and shallow regrets.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 10:16 am care to comment
October 9th, 2005
minor rambles
So I m being flooded with words and visions of splendor that fill me with colors and life.
Reassuring that all these trails will surly come to pass.
I like to feel the coldness o the house slowly melt away with the heat pouring out warming my cold gooses pimply skin chilled by the autumn night. early in the morning and wide eyed 1 am .
My love has worked very hard all week and I ve been missing him. I have so many plans for our family and our future.
There is nothing more splendid than creating a family
Posted by ripewithbaby at 12:50 pm care to comment
anyways so my kicks are getting stronger and more noticale and i find it beauitful to feel such movement.
today is all souls night and it feels like it , the veail is thin and i feel connected to the other side grovvy hunh?
i cooked up a feast for us today and it was yummy over the weekend we attented a party at a friend of mines house and there were so amny people i have not seen in years but out of this came some reealizations other wise i would have been missing out on. just the lameness of the people i know and what their standards for fun really is and how drinking seems to be the biggest thing on everyones list and why was i ever envolved with such loosers? yikes! anyways.
we felt above them all hahahah!!!!
anyways our babyim sure is going to love halloween but going to try to cut the limit of candy well going to try the no candy thing and use otehr methods of yummy ness rather than ickky food.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 07:28 am care to comment
October 28th, 2005
so it is
So it is, another year has came around again. Leading us to Halloween Shamin the Celtic New Year. A time of remberance and reflection within ourselves of what come to pass and what is yet to be. My favorite time of year , the leaves of the summer Turing to a burnt orange and bright buttercup yellows. The air crisp and chilled with winters arrival.
Time to look back not in regret but in respect to the path that we have chosen to follow and to cart our growth. Evolution.
My tummy is growing now enough for even strangers to suspect that Im pregnant and ripe.I have just exited a not so good diet,well it wasn’t horrible but bad enough not to record.
I have been craving healthy food once again. I was kind of not even interested in any raw food for a while I couldn’t eat it. Now again its what I prefer.
I made homemade celery soup (soy) yesterday and it was so yummy today I ate Mexican food ok not so healthy considering most Latinos are very over weight but it was yummy.
My leg cramps are out of control and quite painful.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 10:01 am care to comment
October 27th, 2005
insisting parents
this is what our baby looks like now.
So I find this amazing,truly. So so parents just naturally think because you and your mate are having a baby that they are automatically up on your list or something? Like to them that means that they will see their “grandchildren” and stuff a lot. Actually no, think again, this is how its gonna be just like this. You want nothing to do with me and my life because you disagree with the ways I have chosen to live and raise my child so then you think it gives you reason to see us more. Absolutely not! Especially after this kind of treatment our child WILL not be in or around a aggressive negative confrontational environment like I was raised in. why whole I subject our child to what I have been my whole life trying to heal myself from? Not going to happen!
Posted by ripewithbaby at 08:04 am care to comment
October 22nd, 2005
gloomy day
Today was so gloomy no sun just rain and clouds but I really enjoyed it.
Do you remember that song “the cats in the cradle and the silver spoon”? we sang that song in 3rd grade I never understood the meaning of that song I guess when your young you don’t. the story is about a a son and a father . the son growing up and grower further away from his father. His father wants to reach out but by the end of the story the son had grown up and they never had the time.
It seems like forever I have been trying to fix me and my parents relationship but like this son instead of the son never having time or having the realization that his father just wanted to connect. My parents never have the time. Never had the time.
Not that it matters but it hurts. You go out of your way to mend or try and get time back that you lost when you were young and from the other there is no interest. ( sigh)
Went shopping today J I ate at red lobster today and I must say their food is so typical of a corporate establishment, bland and tasteless. Its hard to find a good restaurant in this town especially when all you want is veggie dishes.
I cleaned so much today I did too much today im tired.
I cut my hair the other day because im growing my hair out. I know what a contradiction actually it was to even everything up and all one length Jim very happy with it
Anyways so I started my own business selling Organic Natural Botanical Makeup and skin care products as well as self care. Its not like crappy Avon I used to sellAvon buts it not really your business your just someone else’s bitch with Avon.anyways. so I invested and I m making this my own and im going to the mall I think? Just a little spot . and because im not desperate for money I seem to find more joy in this than vs. being totally broke and needy. You know.?..
Fridays suck.i mean I really don’t care for them all too much. My lovely is gone selling pizza all day and I miss him.our home looks so beautiful. Its really coming together now , it has taken a while like things usually do but all the pieces in place.
We are going to re paint the nursery but we are going to find out what we are having I think girl but I just want a healthy loving child. That’s all a parent could ask for.
Whibleton is a poop monster. My little puppy (minnypinny) we just got him like 2 weeks ago loves to poop everywhere eek. Its gross. I think im going to buy him puppy bloomers!
Im gonna rest ,chow
Posted by ripewithbaby at 12:37 pm 1 comments
October 21st, 2005
crashing
So now my pregnancy, each day it get a little bit more harder to keep myself and hold myself together. The hormones are raging and I seem to be out of control randomly. I know whats happening and I cant seem to help it its really like riding a roller coaster or surfing. You ride the wave take it where it leads but don’t struggle in the wave or you will surly drown. Its not really that bad ok I guees it is during that time but its still over whelming.
Anyways…My dogs get on my nerves sometimes so much! Grrr. Begging for a pregnant persons food. What kind of weird o does that?lol. they are constantly needy drinking out of toilets chews up my plants crapping randomly animal filth. Eeek! They really annoy me totally!
Yum food has been good to me now im long since past the morning sickness of the first tri mester I can eat J and my appetite is monstrous.
I was under weight before I was pregnant(99 pounds) so now my weight gain is not even where im supposed to be. J loosing weight wont be bad because I will look fabulous anyway!
Posted by ripewithbaby at 11:55 am 1 comments
October 19th, 2005
little one
Dear little bean,
My thoughts waltz through my mind today like the burgundy and orange tinted leaves slowly making their way across the street.
An autumn day upon us here and gone so fast.
Just as time usually does ,being almost half way through little bean soon enough we shall meet. And we will be a family all together.
Everyday it seems little one I see so much surfacing. I guess I never even scratched the surface.
I remember when earlier this year my life seemed to fall apart at the seams. Every single thing was falling and crashing down. NO structure, no balance, no safety net. Little one I must tell you your mamma wasn’t sure that she was going to make it. There was much I must say I have to tell.
There I was in a state thousands of miles away from any familiarity and stranded. Alone, sacred and desperate to find a way to live. When you choose to stop listening to your self, when you stop doing things that you please and become a self made slave you have nothing. You have to start over. With nothing but the truth facing you. Nothing to fear little one, really there is nothing to fear. Don’t ever forget the joy within your heart. Things happen in life sometimes we have no explanation for and sometimes it leaves our heart feeling empty and even broken. You little bean you shall never be broken always keep that love in your heart. The wonder in your eyes and the light within your spirit.
How I love you.
My prayers were answered when I let go. When I didn’t care when I jumped off the cliff with out looking what was below. Trusting that like cats I would not only land on my feet but somewhere wonderful.
regrets are a waste of time
There is nothing that leaves your life for no reason,when people or things leave its only because the promised law is that something better is on its way.it may not be in one day or one year but little bean never give your faith up for nothing. Because sometimes little one faith is all we seem to have.all along the way to where I am today I have waited prayed and hoped many endless moons for the light at the end of the tunnel.
Little one we are the light. I must say sometimes I do get caught up even still after everything. I can not lie. It is the truth the reality of my experience
Posted by ripewithbaby at 08:55 am care to comment
October 13th, 2005
whimbleton
Because I have not been writing exactly everyday anymore I have not spoke of love in a while.In a world of corruption it seems love is the only thing that is really real.
Yesterday we got the puppy I have been wanting for years it seems. Finally in my arms. Kind of like the longing for your unborn child but yet patiently waiting.
I was thinking about another kind but I really don’t like bugged eyes . eek! I got a minny pinny J a little boy named …. Whimbleton that’s Ambassador Whimbleton to you.
It brings my heart do much joy and my heart chakra loves it. Opening so wide and shining. Hes such a cuddle bug and buttercup seems to enjoy his company.
he is so very precious and nice to sleep next to cuddled inbetwee you and the pillow. This is going to be a pampered baby. hes so... tiny!
i love him so much. i really have to thank my husbund for being so soupportive and willing to have another pup.
john is so lovely. making everyday more meaningful and worth every breath.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 10:52 am care to comment
to the point
When was it acceptable to make your own family feel full of guilt pointing out certain individuals in that family placing blame and guilt trips to try and please everyone except the most very important person your self?
I hear ,o your grandparents will drop over dead with a heart attack when they find out what you are doing. O well ...Well great i say, there is nothing that I haven’t already done , and this will shock everyone? Because I choose to do the best thing for my health and my child?
I do care , and that why I have choose what I have.
Since when have I shocked anyone?
OMG that’s the funniest thing I have heard or said all day!
Give me a break , seriously.
It still does not take away from the fact my parents have never been supportive and only had the desire to control not to console .
There was a time for the pain and turbulence I experienced in my time with my parents and much was learned out of it. I think for those reasons, for the wisdom that I pulled out of it.
Breaking karma. Freeing ourselves from the negative ties that held us to any negative person or situation.
Its amazing I see the pattern run over and over again in this family. Struggling for power because no personal power is owned or even understood only envied and feared.
Everyone want to be a part of this child birth and its like they think that some how they really are connected to this child.
Why would I choose to place my very own flesh and blood in the same environments that enslaved and jaded my impressionable fragile childhood?
Taken years and still working through the mess.
The sad truth of the matter is that we are the parents. We are no longer held under by parents that are more like dictators than role models.
Given the opportunity to free and break the cycle of ignorance and poverty on every level.
I sill find m self angry. That my parents still don’t understand me and all I ve ever done was give them the chance to watch me shine.
There really is no common ground.
I have always sought my self through the lies that they built around me. Never settling for the “simple” life and simplemindedness that they choose to participate in.
So I have been trying to mend the broken bridges of my me and my parents relationship
Consistently for 2 years, and I feel I have got no where. Not any further than from where I began.
This is important , because many valuable lessons are being poured from this.
In preparation for parenthood these issues I feel must be resolved and let go. Thats why its so important. So there is no distortion in raising our baby because of our own childhood wounds. Being pregnant really makes these things surface, face to face all your own hidden wounds.
It wouldn’t matter so much to me if I wouldn’t have put so much of myself into mending so many broken ties to my family. I guess the average person does not know the story between us. 4 Years ago I was ready to sue my parents and take them for everything we didn’t take for a few years in a bitter silence and court dates.
Im not attached to my parents or even slightly care what they think. It is so wonderful when you have family that has your back.
This time there are so many things more important than proving a point its about settling the score and letting go.
Our child is coming over to this side and there is no more time for bitterness and shallow regrets.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 10:16 am care to comment
October 9th, 2005
minor rambles
So I m being flooded with words and visions of splendor that fill me with colors and life.
Reassuring that all these trails will surly come to pass.
I like to feel the coldness o the house slowly melt away with the heat pouring out warming my cold gooses pimply skin chilled by the autumn night. early in the morning and wide eyed 1 am .
My love has worked very hard all week and I ve been missing him. I have so many plans for our family and our future.
There is nothing more splendid than creating a family
Posted by ripewithbaby at 12:50 pm care to comment
November 10 to November 3rd
November 10th, 2005
mother and daughter resolved
ripewithbaby
You know for once ( sometimes I hate to get my hopes up) it seems me and my mother have grown tired of fighting and arguing over this very important matter.
Noting that we have both very dramatic differences between us finding a middle way, middle ground to tread comfortably. At least for the last few weeks.
Feeling more pregnant and obviously more motherly I find myself more conscious of this beautiful process of life that seems to be pouring forth from my belly.
I see myself coming from the phase of maiden moving into the mother aspect of the triple spiral. It is so beautiful.
To love, to care, to nurture for one who even yet I can not see with my external eyes but still the ever presence of love.
Hey don’t forget my personal non pregnancy blog is located at : http://scarlet.myblog.com/
Posted by ripewithbaby at 11:01 am care to comment
bridging between
ripewithbaby
Today I woke up around 9 am which is unheard of to this night owl body. I woke up early to paint the baby’s room adding hills and valleys plus a horizon of blue sky. I started the kitchen today a bright yellow I still have to find a complementary color to go with it.
I went to walgreens and I was picking out a new hair color because im bored with the one I have love the red I have but… time for some change. I was getting dizzy and finally had to fall to the floor today . I was at the bridges of consciousness of normality to something new and wonderfully different. everything slowly phased out getting blurry and soft the sound slow and non comprehendible and all there was , was black .
My mom helped me up to go to the walgreens back room to get out of the asile to rest for am moment while my husband came to pick me up today.
O yes pregnancy beautiful but sometimes scary. Passing out is enjoyable sometimes i guess because of the instant crossing over of realties but not when your in a store.
so i have to not do so much and slow down i keep forgetting that pregnancy is desgined to slow you down and take your time with life not taking on too much at a time something a aries finds strange, go go go, activity, action, life! to relax slow down take it easy. urg. i guees its a new change becusase normally im on a fire path blazing to my next adventure.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 05:05 am care to comment
November 9th, 2005
dreams
ripewithbaby
I took a nap today and yet I have been slightly worried about our baby. I just have not been feeling a lot of movement and I asked our child today for a dream because I have been honestly worried. I dreamed…
There I was in a home many ours or maybe grandparents much people about in other rooms me and baby new born setting there talking telepathically like normal adult speech but it seemed I was the only one that could her past the baby gaga sounds . it was a bright little girl with fire in her eyes and much love and soul in her heart. She said yes mom, I m happy.
We shall see if we have a girl , im excited ether way.
We are going to paint the nursery tonight bought another green for sponging and a blue for sky. How beautiful it shall be!
Posted by ripewithbaby at 09:01 am care to comment
November 8th, 2005
road lag
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Yes we just arrived back home from a weekend atChicago dining and a bit of shopping and a family friends funeral showing. Anyways. We got to see many people seemingly to excited and surprised that we are so ripe ( 5 months) J
I really enjoyed getting out of this stuffy little town even for a week end to another stuffy mid west town. I really realized when you have traveled so much you notice so many different things about people in and from their area and so on.
You know theres really no place inAmerica I would like to move too. I have a home and a family here and I building my creative self and lifestyle. Which you can do anywhere, really. We talked with jonny sister much about childbirth and raising children. Which before these moments I have never really given clear thought too.
All the different aspects of raising a child and all the avenues that one can take. Knowing that spiritually shall be a root element of our Childs up bringing.
An environment lacking fear, interrogation negativity and wild astral nastys.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 09:05 am care to comment
strange encounters
ripewithbaby
I caught myself in the side mirror of my vehicle, a glimpse of my inner child. Her face so soft and slightly round lips of colored of fearless pink and green hazel eyes. Fearless yet scared of the trouble she knew that she would surly find trouble with a heart like hers. But I always was true to me heart.Wild. Free. Unrestricted. For a moment I felt us merge together into the now. Catching up to where I have been.
I was always a strange little girl, never seemed to fit in to anything that seemed to be going on outside of me. Let me paint and smell those daisy’s. I have time for friends later. Pure and untainted fairies danced flower to flower I closed my eyes to find myself with the understanding of timeless knowledge playing in the woods. Turn my head to see the sun setting always time to go home just when everything begins.
I had my raggedy ann red suitcase, my Mickey mouse alarm clock my favorite stuffed animal a little dog named spot his eye was damaged and his ear had been sewn back on. some clothes and a book. I was 7. I was running away. I was found leaving the front door , my parents left me with no more comfort than I had before I decided I was running away.I was sent to bed and tucked in. As I recall I was just walking to my grandmothers about a mile, I knew I would find comfort there.
12 years old going on 13 . A stage of transformation and confusion just the same. I felt more detached from my parents and more distant. Pulling away and forcing myself down my own path .i remember when everything seemed to be as a dream, not the perfect dream but good enough to feel dreamy. My grandmother had been sick for quite some time, in fact years. I guess when you are young you don’t know what a disease or cancer is you always figure that they will find a cure or that they will recover. You think nothing will shatter your world.
As i watched my grandmother lay in the hospital bed for the 20th time it had seemed I was growing up a little more each time. hooked up to tubes and tanks I hated to watch every time she felt sick, because as did I the same. Her usual body size of a decent woman with a curvy figure and round waist had dwindled down to a Skelton , her face was no longer round and her skin, her skin was yellow. It frightened me. I just hoped and kept on praying that some how she would re gain her health. She never did. She died January.21.1995. it was a cold and bitter day. I remember the last time I saw her. Laying on her couch with people all around I didn’t even have a moment of quiet private time with her, she said with a weak and barely speak able tired voice ”don’t forget me, don’t forget about me, I love you.” That night she died.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 08:55 am care to comment
November 6th, 2005
baby love
ripewithbaby
Sometimes im just a unbelievably anti social creature.anti social by choice more so a hermit.i guess I can see how some people are anti social not by choice but by what ever they make lack on a communication level or maybe nerve. Not sure and it doesn’t seem to be relevant for this subject anyways.
More so now that im pregnant I love my space and im not talking about space away from jonny because we are one and the same so jonny doesn’t count as a outside part because we are one flesh but I mean pets and especially other humans not of my self.
More time to myself, even my pets seem to suffocate me time to time. Always following me begging for a pregnant woman’s food and barking(I hate noisy animals mind you) ruining my new carpets and just pain simply being nasty animals. I love them but I tend to thin more and more they belong most like cat and dogs out side. not in a nice carpeted environment clean environment. Its not like they can help it either I do realize this but its still irritating to me.
Today me and my parents went to a relatives 50th wedding anniversary. Everyone petting and admiring my pregnant belly and I enjoy hearing all the different ways to tell if it’s a boy or girl. like every thinks because the way im carrying it’s a girl I think it’s a girl because that’s my gut feeling buts its hard to really ask yourself that question because as a mother you just want a healthy baby. so much baby love
Anways I ate bunch of sweet and sour pickles today very yummyJ
So I have just been trying to keep up with myself.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 06:52 am 1 comments
November 5th, 2005
friday meltdown
ripewithbaby
Sometimes it gets so hard to pull it all together.
When you have like a thousand thoughts going all at once and they are worries and might and could be’s enough to drive you mad.
So afraid I will be a rotten mother and wont be able to show by example of the way a human should be because maybe im being lazy and not doing it myself. Its hard to evaluate yourself sometimes, because you are always bias.
Theres nothing I wouldn’t do for our child and I have so much love, I just don’t want to repeat the cycle and do what dint and still wont ever work with children.
So many concerns. So amny things to think about.
The tears just keep coming like a flood and the sadness is deep almost a despair. Its marrow settling.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 11:49 am care to comment
yea new vehicle
Today we got our new vehicle(a mistu of course) well my primary vehicle, since our child is on its way here in 21 weeks exactly half way through my pregnancy the main reason for purching a new vehicle. Its more than just a new vehicle it represents more than that.My car has always meant more than just a thing that gets me place to place I tend to form a relationship with it and turn it into a pet. Something I have respect and love for I know a intimate
object but I believe you inject a object with enrgeris and thoughts you can build your very own new creature.
im excited and thankful.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 12:12 am care to comment
November 3rd, 2005
almost 20 weeks
Im almost 20 weeks along and I do feel the baby kick sometimes it just feels like flutters and jonny loves to try and feel them too. I have been trying to get back to my normal diet of eating healthy . at night I have been wrestles as being pregnant will do to you, im constantly hungry and I eat like I have never eaten before.
I cant believe that im almost half way through my pregnancy! Its so beautiful and I really enjoy being pregnant it does(most the time) make me feel so very beautiful.
Ive been trying to eat yogurt everyday or every other day
Baby leaf spinach a bunch a day
Pasta is my new thing
Poppyseed and Italian dressing
Sweet pickles(just the juice is good to drink)
Peanut butter jelly mayo cheese sandwiches
Its officially hard to walk up the satris now I get out of breath and so tired at tehtop of the stairs. Bending over is now a task I must say, I move a lot slower and more pre planned steaps.leg cramps side pains shooting pains from hell and lovely constipation sometimes … I have been such better recently.
Ive been drinking a lot of fluids, I eat right before bed or else I cant sleep.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 11:45 am care to comment
mother and daughter resolved
ripewithbaby
You know for once ( sometimes I hate to get my hopes up) it seems me and my mother have grown tired of fighting and arguing over this very important matter.
Noting that we have both very dramatic differences between us finding a middle way, middle ground to tread comfortably. At least for the last few weeks.
Feeling more pregnant and obviously more motherly I find myself more conscious of this beautiful process of life that seems to be pouring forth from my belly.
I see myself coming from the phase of maiden moving into the mother aspect of the triple spiral. It is so beautiful.
To love, to care, to nurture for one who even yet I can not see with my external eyes but still the ever presence of love.
Hey don’t forget my personal non pregnancy blog is located at : http://scarlet.myblog.com/
Posted by ripewithbaby at 11:01 am care to comment
bridging between
ripewithbaby
Today I woke up around 9 am which is unheard of to this night owl body. I woke up early to paint the baby’s room adding hills and valleys plus a horizon of blue sky. I started the kitchen today a bright yellow I still have to find a complementary color to go with it.
I went to walgreens and I was picking out a new hair color because im bored with the one I have love the red I have but… time for some change. I was getting dizzy and finally had to fall to the floor today . I was at the bridges of consciousness of normality to something new and wonderfully different. everything slowly phased out getting blurry and soft the sound slow and non comprehendible and all there was , was black .
My mom helped me up to go to the walgreens back room to get out of the asile to rest for am moment while my husband came to pick me up today.
O yes pregnancy beautiful but sometimes scary. Passing out is enjoyable sometimes i guess because of the instant crossing over of realties but not when your in a store.
so i have to not do so much and slow down i keep forgetting that pregnancy is desgined to slow you down and take your time with life not taking on too much at a time something a aries finds strange, go go go, activity, action, life! to relax slow down take it easy. urg. i guees its a new change becusase normally im on a fire path blazing to my next adventure.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 05:05 am care to comment
November 9th, 2005
dreams
ripewithbaby
I took a nap today and yet I have been slightly worried about our baby. I just have not been feeling a lot of movement and I asked our child today for a dream because I have been honestly worried. I dreamed…
There I was in a home many ours or maybe grandparents much people about in other rooms me and baby new born setting there talking telepathically like normal adult speech but it seemed I was the only one that could her past the baby gaga sounds . it was a bright little girl with fire in her eyes and much love and soul in her heart. She said yes mom, I m happy.
We shall see if we have a girl , im excited ether way.
We are going to paint the nursery tonight bought another green for sponging and a blue for sky. How beautiful it shall be!
Posted by ripewithbaby at 09:01 am care to comment
November 8th, 2005
road lag
ripewithbaby
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Watch Video:
STRANGE LITTLE GIRL (Tori Amos)
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Yes we just arrived back home from a weekend atChicago dining and a bit of shopping and a family friends funeral showing. Anyways. We got to see many people seemingly to excited and surprised that we are so ripe ( 5 months) J
I really enjoyed getting out of this stuffy little town even for a week end to another stuffy mid west town. I really realized when you have traveled so much you notice so many different things about people in and from their area and so on.
You know theres really no place inAmerica I would like to move too. I have a home and a family here and I building my creative self and lifestyle. Which you can do anywhere, really. We talked with jonny sister much about childbirth and raising children. Which before these moments I have never really given clear thought too.
All the different aspects of raising a child and all the avenues that one can take. Knowing that spiritually shall be a root element of our Childs up bringing.
An environment lacking fear, interrogation negativity and wild astral nastys.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 09:05 am care to comment
strange encounters
ripewithbaby
I caught myself in the side mirror of my vehicle, a glimpse of my inner child. Her face so soft and slightly round lips of colored of fearless pink and green hazel eyes. Fearless yet scared of the trouble she knew that she would surly find trouble with a heart like hers. But I always was true to me heart.Wild. Free. Unrestricted. For a moment I felt us merge together into the now. Catching up to where I have been.
I was always a strange little girl, never seemed to fit in to anything that seemed to be going on outside of me. Let me paint and smell those daisy’s. I have time for friends later. Pure and untainted fairies danced flower to flower I closed my eyes to find myself with the understanding of timeless knowledge playing in the woods. Turn my head to see the sun setting always time to go home just when everything begins.
I had my raggedy ann red suitcase, my Mickey mouse alarm clock my favorite stuffed animal a little dog named spot his eye was damaged and his ear had been sewn back on. some clothes and a book. I was 7. I was running away. I was found leaving the front door , my parents left me with no more comfort than I had before I decided I was running away.I was sent to bed and tucked in. As I recall I was just walking to my grandmothers about a mile, I knew I would find comfort there.
12 years old going on 13 . A stage of transformation and confusion just the same. I felt more detached from my parents and more distant. Pulling away and forcing myself down my own path .i remember when everything seemed to be as a dream, not the perfect dream but good enough to feel dreamy. My grandmother had been sick for quite some time, in fact years. I guess when you are young you don’t know what a disease or cancer is you always figure that they will find a cure or that they will recover. You think nothing will shatter your world.
As i watched my grandmother lay in the hospital bed for the 20th time it had seemed I was growing up a little more each time. hooked up to tubes and tanks I hated to watch every time she felt sick, because as did I the same. Her usual body size of a decent woman with a curvy figure and round waist had dwindled down to a Skelton , her face was no longer round and her skin, her skin was yellow. It frightened me. I just hoped and kept on praying that some how she would re gain her health. She never did. She died January.21.1995. it was a cold and bitter day. I remember the last time I saw her. Laying on her couch with people all around I didn’t even have a moment of quiet private time with her, she said with a weak and barely speak able tired voice ”don’t forget me, don’t forget about me, I love you.” That night she died.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 08:55 am care to comment
November 6th, 2005
baby love
ripewithbaby
Sometimes im just a unbelievably anti social creature.anti social by choice more so a hermit.i guess I can see how some people are anti social not by choice but by what ever they make lack on a communication level or maybe nerve. Not sure and it doesn’t seem to be relevant for this subject anyways.
More so now that im pregnant I love my space and im not talking about space away from jonny because we are one and the same so jonny doesn’t count as a outside part because we are one flesh but I mean pets and especially other humans not of my self.
More time to myself, even my pets seem to suffocate me time to time. Always following me begging for a pregnant woman’s food and barking(I hate noisy animals mind you) ruining my new carpets and just pain simply being nasty animals. I love them but I tend to thin more and more they belong most like cat and dogs out side. not in a nice carpeted environment clean environment. Its not like they can help it either I do realize this but its still irritating to me.
Today me and my parents went to a relatives 50th wedding anniversary. Everyone petting and admiring my pregnant belly and I enjoy hearing all the different ways to tell if it’s a boy or girl. like every thinks because the way im carrying it’s a girl I think it’s a girl because that’s my gut feeling buts its hard to really ask yourself that question because as a mother you just want a healthy baby. so much baby love
Anways I ate bunch of sweet and sour pickles today very yummyJ
So I have just been trying to keep up with myself.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 06:52 am 1 comments
November 5th, 2005
friday meltdown
ripewithbaby
Sometimes it gets so hard to pull it all together.
When you have like a thousand thoughts going all at once and they are worries and might and could be’s enough to drive you mad.
So afraid I will be a rotten mother and wont be able to show by example of the way a human should be because maybe im being lazy and not doing it myself. Its hard to evaluate yourself sometimes, because you are always bias.
Theres nothing I wouldn’t do for our child and I have so much love, I just don’t want to repeat the cycle and do what dint and still wont ever work with children.
So many concerns. So amny things to think about.
The tears just keep coming like a flood and the sadness is deep almost a despair. Its marrow settling.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 11:49 am care to comment
yea new vehicle
Today we got our new vehicle(a mistu of course) well my primary vehicle, since our child is on its way here in 21 weeks exactly half way through my pregnancy the main reason for purching a new vehicle. Its more than just a new vehicle it represents more than that.My car has always meant more than just a thing that gets me place to place I tend to form a relationship with it and turn it into a pet. Something I have respect and love for I know a intimate
object but I believe you inject a object with enrgeris and thoughts you can build your very own new creature.
im excited and thankful.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 12:12 am care to comment
November 3rd, 2005
almost 20 weeks
Im almost 20 weeks along and I do feel the baby kick sometimes it just feels like flutters and jonny loves to try and feel them too. I have been trying to get back to my normal diet of eating healthy . at night I have been wrestles as being pregnant will do to you, im constantly hungry and I eat like I have never eaten before.
I cant believe that im almost half way through my pregnancy! Its so beautiful and I really enjoy being pregnant it does(most the time) make me feel so very beautiful.
Ive been trying to eat yogurt everyday or every other day
Baby leaf spinach a bunch a day
Pasta is my new thing
Poppyseed and Italian dressing
Sweet pickles(just the juice is good to drink)
Peanut butter jelly mayo cheese sandwiches
Its officially hard to walk up the satris now I get out of breath and so tired at tehtop of the stairs. Bending over is now a task I must say, I move a lot slower and more pre planned steaps.leg cramps side pains shooting pains from hell and lovely constipation sometimes … I have been such better recently.
Ive been drinking a lot of fluids, I eat right before bed or else I cant sleep.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 11:45 am care to comment
December 6th to November 7th
December 6th, 2005
ripewithbaby
So its only been a few days since ive posted and well letssee…
My tumm tumm has been upset recently and ive been pickyabout the bottled water I drink and just about anything I eat. Back to potatoesI hated them for a while. Ive been digging spicy pickles and cranberry juice.
Back pain and ligament pains the usual.
Little bean toady when we were using the heartbeat thingy tohear you we were trying to find your heart beat and you kicked or punched righton the receiver we both felt it and it was a amazing moment.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 06:35 am care to comment
December 3rd, 2005
23 week
ripewithbaby
Wow I have my self spread all over the net like crazy I haveso many blogs for different parts of my self its crazy like.
So I have to catch up a little bit I have touched base alittle bit on my other blogs how our pregnancyis going but this is its proper place so… I have much to say.
Round ligament pains have been less frequent butincreasingly more painful. Our little bean has been increasing her/hisactivity( I think her) so very much especially when I lat down after a busy dayof running around doing this and that.
Jonny can now for sure feel you little one and it makes usso happy.
Today me and my mother painted the nursery jonny helps whenhe has time but I usually do the painting at night time an don the week ends.The blue sky is painted and the rolling hills are painted now all I have to doit the details! Whoo hoo my favorite part. Flowers, clouds, trees, the sun andmoon and whatever else we think of.
Food ok ok well ive defiantly been on a better diet butthose where the days I woud skip on food for a day or 2 depending how appealingfood seemed to be. Now I have to eat everyday and its annoying I don’t reallycare too much for food it’s a necessity and that’s about it.
Ive been diggin Horseradish and pickles umm recies pieces ,ivebeen craving fruit and stuff like that.
Fish is repulsive still and so is carrot juice.
Been tired but feeling better with the wheat grass andspurlina ive been taking.
We are very excited.23 week of pregnancy. Baby is 8 inches.wow! month 6 accoring to weeks not the actual month thingy!
wow. Time is a flying nad there is still so muchto do and be done.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 12:15 pm care to comment
November 24th, 2005
back pain
ripewithbaby
ahh. yes backpain. let me tell you so it is the real symptoms ofpregnancy set in. soul shaking backpain, right through your spine. eek!wow its painful little one you sure are growing. 7 inches the size of alarge bananna. you sure are growing. i feel you alot little beanespically around 8 or 9 am you are really active. not that im up atsuch a obsence hour but you tend to wake me up i enjoy to feel yourkicks and rolls and mabye your punching me thats ok as long asits only in the womb...22 weeks on saturday. wow. about 19 or 18 weeks left of carrying you deep within my belly.
me and your father are soooo excited about your arrival . our family. nothing more important.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 08:02 am care to comment
November 22nd, 2005
been busy
ripewithbaby
You Are A Rowan Tree
You are full of charm and cheer. You light up a room. And while you crave attention, you do it without ego. You are an interesting mix of contradictions - and very unpredictable. You are both dependent and independent, calm and restless. You are passionate, emotional, gregarious, and (at times) unforgiving.
What is Your Celtic Horoscope?
been busy bloggin under my personal name have not posted here in a while. i guess theres alot more to talk about personally than preganncy everyday.
my diest is improving,almost back to my normal healthy self,well ok mabye not almost but better.our little one has been busy and active recentlymore than ever
ive noticed when i dont eat for a long while little bean bounces about in my belly seemingly to be restless with out food. and when i m upset or having a pregancy mood swing of ups and downs our little treause will bounce and kick. all morning i felt our baby awake and playing.
my belly is now bulging, you cant miss the fact im ripe with baby, unless of course your some kind of moron.my clothes well my pants wont buckle but i insist on wearing my normal jeans from time to time and my breasts are slightly larger, not that they were small to begin with. i know i have perfect sized breats for my size the kind that weak people pay to get. ahhh...
anyways.finally trying to get the dogs under control and prepared for baby. keeping them in the kitchen and frount porch most of the day and then in the cage which is in the closet their closet ant night.im afraid filthy creatures do not get teh privelage of roaming the house freely until under control. for our sake and babys.
recently it seems i need a trichologist to figure out whats up with my hair it seems to be slightly out of control.
it seems to be preganncy is like in the water or something, its amazing that all of us come up ripe at the same time. me anna and mellissa and now jennifer my siksto cusion is pregnant. i have no idea how she will handle a child i hope it works out lovely,she doesnt seem stable.anyways pregant bellies everywhere i look. im so looking forward to thanksgiving yea! pregant belies will be full plump happy bellies and happy babies with so many tastes for them to sample in the amnotic fluid. our baby will love chocolate!
anyways i contemplated going back to school well only part time of course but to do something lovely that i love and enjoy and most of all get paid im thinking i could have it taken care of by feb and enroll in hte fall or even spring depending on how i feel. i want a profession that allows travel and re location plus living in the tropics i have just the thing!
Posted by ripewithbaby at 06:03 am care to comment
November 17th, 2005
im so tired
ripewithbaby
As for me well today I have been feeling more pregnant than ever. You know sometimes you not that you forget that your pregnant but slightly. It’s a process maybe that’s another reason why pregnancy is 9 months long because it gives you time to prepare for this gigantic life altering event called parenthood.
It’s a gradual process. Im used to the idea that my genes and genetic code and jonnys genetic code have fused into one creating unique individual based on our blood. My blood flowing through the baby. Its no longer me or just the two of us. It’s the three of us. Our family. Everything is slowing changing.
So much now I m responsible for and I no longer see a lot of things with a 22 year olds eyes. Things that once worried or interested me are no longer of interest and no longer trouble me.
Im growing more tired by the day again it seems my energy is dwindling lower and lower.
So im back to my healthy diet well almost.
You know I cut out caffeine months ago even before I was pregnant as well as alcohol, dairy, sugar and bleached processed flour.
I have been eating the occasional candy bar and wheat toast which is actually funny because I usually hate bread.
My goal after im pregnant is to be 100 pounds size zero which is my normal size. Its amazing I put a pair of my normal pants on and they fit except the zipper wont close so its not like im getting fat its just my belly is expanding .i plan to be one hot ma ma by next summer in short shorts high heels and our baby wrapped up close on my Brest.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 05:40 am care to comment
November 16th, 2005
babys heartbeat
ripewithbaby
Today we went to the doctors office today to have the only pre natal exam I will have. I had to go in because I kept having dizzy fainting spells and needed some blood work done and we wanted to hear the heart beat to see if everything was normal. You wouldn’t believe the things that they want to do to you if you sign yourself over to their care.i don’t and didn’t comply the doc himself seemed understanding and agreed that the medical side of pregnancy and giving birth in a hospital sterilizes the experience making it uniform instead of natural. He also said 90% of births go fabulously and that everything should be fine. So we heard the babys heart beat for the first timeJ
We cried a little it was so amazing to hear our little babys heart beating and pumping. I think making this pregnancy more concrete for jonny after hearing the baby.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 05:32 am care to comment
November 15th, 2005
sleepy
ripewithbaby
Pregnancy tires you making you extremely tired and sleepy.muscles ache and a undoubtly obsessive need for food which is new to me because I m not a big fan of food usually being just a necessity to life almost a nuisance.
Anyways. Today I have spent resting I have to go get some blood work done tomorrow yep e. hopefully it will tell much . anywas im sleepy and achy so I will write another time.
http://www.acidplanet.com/artist.asp?AID=437700&T=824119
this is my artist page for the music i create and upload to the net just another one of my passions... music cant wait to add my sinign tracks
i had an account here a while ago but i just updated my life plans, i like this site it helps you figure out ans sort out whats importnat enought to do and get done. http://www.43things.com/person/scarletmoon
Posted by ripewithbaby at 06:34 am care to comment
November 13th, 2005
scummy filthy animlas
ripewithbaby
You know I have always loved animals and felt acertain responsibility to take care of their kind. But I don’t know if it iscause im pregnant or what but I really cant stand living with animals(besidesmy lovely ferrets) dogs and cats need to stay outside. Filth and annoying I justwant space and time to myself with no scummy creatures trying to beg for scrapsand poop all over my well kept home.
iknow damn well when our baby is born these dogs have rules adn rulesWILL be followed or thats it byt bye cause if tehy wake our baby 1 toomany times taht means a tired cranky baby which + a tired cranky angryupset MOTHER which = much trouble and discomfort for anuimls that thinkthey run teh show. 2 aries in the house adn a cappy adn the dogs thinkthey run the show Ha!
dont get me wrong i love animals just not living with them when they think carpet is a strange colored grass.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 02:09 pm care to comment
November 11th, 2005
sleepy day
ripewithbaby
today has been a sleepy day for me i have been very tired. slept alot today and still tired.been moody today and slightly irritated with the outside wolrd. i painted the babys room today adding depth to the hills and tree.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 12:30 pm care to comment
ripewithbaby
So its only been a few days since ive posted and well letssee…
My tumm tumm has been upset recently and ive been pickyabout the bottled water I drink and just about anything I eat. Back to potatoesI hated them for a while. Ive been digging spicy pickles and cranberry juice.
Back pain and ligament pains the usual.
Little bean toady when we were using the heartbeat thingy tohear you we were trying to find your heart beat and you kicked or punched righton the receiver we both felt it and it was a amazing moment.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 06:35 am care to comment
December 3rd, 2005
23 week
ripewithbaby
Wow I have my self spread all over the net like crazy I haveso many blogs for different parts of my self its crazy like.
So I have to catch up a little bit I have touched base alittle bit on my other blogs how our pregnancyis going but this is its proper place so… I have much to say.
Round ligament pains have been less frequent butincreasingly more painful. Our little bean has been increasing her/hisactivity( I think her) so very much especially when I lat down after a busy dayof running around doing this and that.
Jonny can now for sure feel you little one and it makes usso happy.
Today me and my mother painted the nursery jonny helps whenhe has time but I usually do the painting at night time an don the week ends.The blue sky is painted and the rolling hills are painted now all I have to doit the details! Whoo hoo my favorite part. Flowers, clouds, trees, the sun andmoon and whatever else we think of.
Food ok ok well ive defiantly been on a better diet butthose where the days I woud skip on food for a day or 2 depending how appealingfood seemed to be. Now I have to eat everyday and its annoying I don’t reallycare too much for food it’s a necessity and that’s about it.
Ive been diggin Horseradish and pickles umm recies pieces ,ivebeen craving fruit and stuff like that.
Fish is repulsive still and so is carrot juice.
Been tired but feeling better with the wheat grass andspurlina ive been taking.
We are very excited.23 week of pregnancy. Baby is 8 inches.wow! month 6 accoring to weeks not the actual month thingy!
wow. Time is a flying nad there is still so muchto do and be done.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 12:15 pm care to comment
November 24th, 2005
back pain
ripewithbaby
ahh. yes backpain. let me tell you so it is the real symptoms ofpregnancy set in. soul shaking backpain, right through your spine. eek!wow its painful little one you sure are growing. 7 inches the size of alarge bananna. you sure are growing. i feel you alot little beanespically around 8 or 9 am you are really active. not that im up atsuch a obsence hour but you tend to wake me up i enjoy to feel yourkicks and rolls and mabye your punching me thats ok as long asits only in the womb...22 weeks on saturday. wow. about 19 or 18 weeks left of carrying you deep within my belly.
me and your father are soooo excited about your arrival . our family. nothing more important.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 08:02 am care to comment
November 22nd, 2005
been busy
ripewithbaby
You Are A Rowan Tree
You are full of charm and cheer. You light up a room. And while you crave attention, you do it without ego. You are an interesting mix of contradictions - and very unpredictable. You are both dependent and independent, calm and restless. You are passionate, emotional, gregarious, and (at times) unforgiving.
What is Your Celtic Horoscope?
been busy bloggin under my personal name have not posted here in a while. i guess theres alot more to talk about personally than preganncy everyday.
my diest is improving,almost back to my normal healthy self,well ok mabye not almost but better.our little one has been busy and active recentlymore than ever
ive noticed when i dont eat for a long while little bean bounces about in my belly seemingly to be restless with out food. and when i m upset or having a pregancy mood swing of ups and downs our little treause will bounce and kick. all morning i felt our baby awake and playing.
my belly is now bulging, you cant miss the fact im ripe with baby, unless of course your some kind of moron.my clothes well my pants wont buckle but i insist on wearing my normal jeans from time to time and my breasts are slightly larger, not that they were small to begin with. i know i have perfect sized breats for my size the kind that weak people pay to get. ahhh...
anyways.finally trying to get the dogs under control and prepared for baby. keeping them in the kitchen and frount porch most of the day and then in the cage which is in the closet their closet ant night.im afraid filthy creatures do not get teh privelage of roaming the house freely until under control. for our sake and babys.
recently it seems i need a trichologist to figure out whats up with my hair it seems to be slightly out of control.
it seems to be preganncy is like in the water or something, its amazing that all of us come up ripe at the same time. me anna and mellissa and now jennifer my siksto cusion is pregnant. i have no idea how she will handle a child i hope it works out lovely,she doesnt seem stable.anyways pregant bellies everywhere i look. im so looking forward to thanksgiving yea! pregant belies will be full plump happy bellies and happy babies with so many tastes for them to sample in the amnotic fluid. our baby will love chocolate!
anyways i contemplated going back to school well only part time of course but to do something lovely that i love and enjoy and most of all get paid im thinking i could have it taken care of by feb and enroll in hte fall or even spring depending on how i feel. i want a profession that allows travel and re location plus living in the tropics i have just the thing!
Posted by ripewithbaby at 06:03 am care to comment
November 17th, 2005
im so tired
ripewithbaby
As for me well today I have been feeling more pregnant than ever. You know sometimes you not that you forget that your pregnant but slightly. It’s a process maybe that’s another reason why pregnancy is 9 months long because it gives you time to prepare for this gigantic life altering event called parenthood.
It’s a gradual process. Im used to the idea that my genes and genetic code and jonnys genetic code have fused into one creating unique individual based on our blood. My blood flowing through the baby. Its no longer me or just the two of us. It’s the three of us. Our family. Everything is slowing changing.
So much now I m responsible for and I no longer see a lot of things with a 22 year olds eyes. Things that once worried or interested me are no longer of interest and no longer trouble me.
Im growing more tired by the day again it seems my energy is dwindling lower and lower.
So im back to my healthy diet well almost.
You know I cut out caffeine months ago even before I was pregnant as well as alcohol, dairy, sugar and bleached processed flour.
I have been eating the occasional candy bar and wheat toast which is actually funny because I usually hate bread.
My goal after im pregnant is to be 100 pounds size zero which is my normal size. Its amazing I put a pair of my normal pants on and they fit except the zipper wont close so its not like im getting fat its just my belly is expanding .i plan to be one hot ma ma by next summer in short shorts high heels and our baby wrapped up close on my Brest.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 05:40 am care to comment
November 16th, 2005
babys heartbeat
ripewithbaby
Today we went to the doctors office today to have the only pre natal exam I will have. I had to go in because I kept having dizzy fainting spells and needed some blood work done and we wanted to hear the heart beat to see if everything was normal. You wouldn’t believe the things that they want to do to you if you sign yourself over to their care.i don’t and didn’t comply the doc himself seemed understanding and agreed that the medical side of pregnancy and giving birth in a hospital sterilizes the experience making it uniform instead of natural. He also said 90% of births go fabulously and that everything should be fine. So we heard the babys heart beat for the first timeJ
We cried a little it was so amazing to hear our little babys heart beating and pumping. I think making this pregnancy more concrete for jonny after hearing the baby.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 05:32 am care to comment
November 15th, 2005
sleepy
ripewithbaby
Pregnancy tires you making you extremely tired and sleepy.muscles ache and a undoubtly obsessive need for food which is new to me because I m not a big fan of food usually being just a necessity to life almost a nuisance.
Anyways. Today I have spent resting I have to go get some blood work done tomorrow yep e. hopefully it will tell much . anywas im sleepy and achy so I will write another time.
http://www.acidplanet.com/artist.asp?AID=437700&T=824119
this is my artist page for the music i create and upload to the net just another one of my passions... music cant wait to add my sinign tracks
i had an account here a while ago but i just updated my life plans, i like this site it helps you figure out ans sort out whats importnat enought to do and get done. http://www.43things.com/person/scarletmoon
Posted by ripewithbaby at 06:34 am care to comment
November 13th, 2005
scummy filthy animlas
ripewithbaby
You know I have always loved animals and felt acertain responsibility to take care of their kind. But I don’t know if it iscause im pregnant or what but I really cant stand living with animals(besidesmy lovely ferrets) dogs and cats need to stay outside. Filth and annoying I justwant space and time to myself with no scummy creatures trying to beg for scrapsand poop all over my well kept home.
iknow damn well when our baby is born these dogs have rules adn rulesWILL be followed or thats it byt bye cause if tehy wake our baby 1 toomany times taht means a tired cranky baby which + a tired cranky angryupset MOTHER which = much trouble and discomfort for anuimls that thinkthey run teh show. 2 aries in the house adn a cappy adn the dogs thinkthey run the show Ha!
dont get me wrong i love animals just not living with them when they think carpet is a strange colored grass.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 02:09 pm care to comment
November 11th, 2005
sleepy day
ripewithbaby
today has been a sleepy day for me i have been very tired. slept alot today and still tired.been moody today and slightly irritated with the outside wolrd. i painted the babys room today adding depth to the hills and tree.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 12:30 pm care to comment
December 25 to December 9th
December 25th, 2005
christmas
ripewithbaby
Merry Christmas little bean! Today was Christmas me and your daddy had a great day. We woke up at 5 am which is unusually early and something miraculous happened!
You daddy was listening and had his head down on my belly and you kicked really hard! Its so cool!
Anyways you could actually see your kicking on the outside of my belly!
You get so very active and you respond the most to your daddy’s touch besides you responding to me . it really fills me with joy.
You got some presents too!
Azell Asilin Davis I have decided to call you since were not sure if you are boy or a girl so I use both names.
we really had a wonderful day the best christmas i have ever had
Posted by ripewithbaby at 01:54 pm care to comment
December 23rd, 2005
thank you
ripewithbaby
Little bean I have been having the absolute most wonderful dreams about you. Last night or yesterday sometime because I tend to nap a lot. I dreamed I was in my womb with you! Right there we were communicating like I do with my spirit guides the unspoken knowledge and communication that takes place between two in this way.
my pregnant belly 6 months
Now its way due time to thank my wonderful fabulous georgious kind open loving gentle perfect husband. Your daddy little bean is the best daddy out there. The best man ever.
He does everything in is power to keep us happy and healthy he does so much for us its really amazing how much he loves us.
My lovely husband thank you so much jonny for all that you do for us. I love you more than life its self and im thankful for everything we have. My love is eternal for you an dour child. Meaning forever and that nothing can change that not even time,because our love is timeless.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 11:17 am care to comment
December 22nd, 2005
dec 21 solistice
ripewithbaby
Happy Solistice!
Hello little one.
I love to write to you although I talk to you all day someday you may like to read these things and know I have always loved and cared for you , completely.
Yesterday we had an interesting day didn’t we? Emotions being strange yet stable in the instability. We managed to make it though smiling. That’s the important part little bean. That no matter the emotions they are emotions and one can conquer emotions let them be what they are don’t fight it go with it. Allow it . allow yourself to be what ever you feel you need to be or express.
As a child for me I don’t think I was allowed this freedom with of being condemned. This my little light of love you shall not experience form us.
You are your own unique individual made by me and your daddys very dna and source of all life fusing together as one to create your body. You being the one inside your body are unique and beautiful. We are here to help you grow and evolve in positive ways.
Little bean I have thought about calling you by your name but then I will have to call you two names because we are not positive that you are a girl but most certain.
We will decide soon. I promise. We have some major ones that are our favs.
Azerelle
Azell
Celestia
Boys names
Arel
Sage
Posted by ripewithbaby at 02:57 am care to comment
December 20th, 2005
25 weeks and counting…
ripewithbaby
Little bean, I cant believe that all this time has gone by and so quickly!
25 weeks is a milestone for sure , you are between 9 and 10 inches and growing in very surprising rates.
As I have found little bean, you have off days like the rest of us.
Some days you are really active, jumping poking and pushing around in there and moving it seems all day! And especially if I lay a certain way that you must not like because sometimes you punch and kick Really hard!
Other days you are more relaxed and you just take it easy.
Still eating tons of yogurt and pickles.
Your room is looking really awesome,moon,sun,stars,castle and such pretty things! You are going to love it!
We love you little bean, don’t ever forget!
Posted by ripewithbaby at 01:38 pm care to comment
December 16th, 2005
unleashed the wild
ripewithbaby
Wow I must say little bean you are growing quite strong these days tending to blast my in my tummy. It makes my giggle. I woke up at 6am.eek. because you deiced to play and I had the realization that wow, there is a human growing inside of my tum, that is like so weird. This baby can hear and feel everything I can wow! A little me heheheh! Look out universe we have unleashed the wild stuff!
today bean im gonna paint your room more
I cant believe im up before 2 pm that’s weird. Little one I hate mornings they make me feel sick every time I wake up in the morning I feel ill ive felt this way my whole life, destined to belong to the night.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 12:01 am 1 comments
December 15th, 2005
Comming in the 3rd trimester
ripewithbaby
The first trimester of pregnancy is well rather difficult or at least can be or tends to be. Food aversions, dizziness, morning sickness and feeling overall icky.
The second trimester you do indeed feel a pick me up in energy and feel more active than the first with energy and mood swings increasing until the last 2ond half.
Im noticing as im working my way to the last trimester here 3rd that it is similar to the first with the energy lacking, feet sweeling,back aches more like spinal pain, dizziness and really lacking the ability to do too much at one time before needing to sit or lay down. Braxton hicks contractions which start early and they are Painful!
Anyways, my new food love is yogart it seems to me that’s all I want to eat! Yogurt, apple juice and pickles are by far the winners in the food world as of now. with another craving for chicken again! The word fish makes my tummy shrivel. And the thought of bread and pasta is totally gross! Im still loving melon and pistachios J
Little bean your nursery is looking Fab! With frog princes and toadstools happy trees and cloud kingdoms its going to be the best nursery ! we are now just working on all the artsy details.hope u love it. Your daddy is painting the day time and im painting the night time, but of course it has to be day and night!
Posted by ripewithbaby at 09:32 am care to comment
December 13th, 2005
poopy people
ripewithbaby
I wanted to re cap on my day, besides doing a lot of running around and necessary things that had to be done I went out to a jazz band concert tonight and I had stopped at walgreens. Little one I have to tell you, you would not believe the strange looks and fingers pointing to my half open pants because im so pregnant with you I cant help it the rest of my pants fit my legs and butt but not my belly because little bean your sooo big now! This fat tall butchy looking older woman pointed and said you need to button your patns up you will get raped that way. I told her that she shouldn’t talk that way to strangers and that she didn’t know me as I walked away she said some snied comment and I looked back and told her that I was armed and dangerous in fount of a line of people. Obviously they didn’t know wht I meant but it shut them all up. Really im dangerous because I energy says cross my line and I will defend myself even to the death.
Grr. I had to have a little re cap on how insecure and ugly people seem to be.
I guees pregnant bellies upset fat people.
But then again fat people are always angry.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 12:21 pm care to comment
December 10th, 2005
techno lova
ripewithbaby
little one i have noted today that you LOVE techno!
yep thats right your little hands and feets just starting a moving in there like crazy! a litle rave in my womb lol.
I have felt really connected to you today i think because i was just in resting healing mode today and in that state of being that rreally connects us to one another.
we will have soooo much fun when you are born i cant wait, not only are we your parents but your best friends and best friends love to have fun togeather we will have so much fun!
dancing,sining, playing,painting walls,late nights eating organic yummies and lots of play
Posted by ripewithbaby at 07:35 am care to comment
December 9th, 2005
Dec 9
ripewithbaby
In 2 days starts the 24th week of our pregnancy.
Little bean let me tell you, we are doing so… much to prepare for you , but we know that theres not much really we can do to prepare ourselves for our arrival in a lot of ways.
I think about you all day and I wake up and touch my belly to let you know that I love you and that im thinking about you and hope that you are nice and cozy inside my womb.
The second trimester started off to a bumpy start around the 16th week is when I finally started to feel a little energy back into me but it never seemed to be a lot. I mean enough ot do dishes and laundry and then sit and relax. I have had allot of food aversions although all in different parts of our pregnancy.
When we fisrt found out we were graced enough to have you growing deep within me I was fasting!99 pounds, I was kind of scared because all I was drinking was water for about a week then juice with a week of salads in between. But I didn’t know why I was feeling so extremely hungry , it was because you needed food to grow. Although I love to fast I will not for your sake and even when your born I will continue to eat healthy so while I nurse you , you will be healthy.
At first I wanted to eat a lot of potatoes and extra sharp cheddar cheese.
I ate tons of fruit. Could NOT touch mushrooms and then I ate potatoes made in about 30 diffearnt ways. Then salmon was what I wanted and then it was totally my enemy and still is. Any fish makes me sick. Which is weird because im a sushi eater. Which I cant wait till we go to japan because we are gonna eat yummyfyied sushi which little one you wont eat directly but through my milk.
Anyways then cheese became the enemy which always is but sometimes it tastes good even though im filled with mucus. I hate milk and always have hated milk its gross.
I slept so very much little one it seemed that you took all my energy. The first trimester was a little rough because ididnt have full blown morning sickness it just lasted all day and I was throwing up stomach lining and liquid acidic stuff
Your daddy was and is so wonderful he helps so much and he made sure I had whatever food I wanted and takes so good care of us and cleaning when I don’t have the energy to do anything but eat and sleep.
The 3rd trimester starts in a coupple weeks wow! The last and final trimester of pregnancy.
We are so excited .
I have been feeling a little better than previously with my anemia but I hate heartburn and acid reflex now whee! Leg cramps and back pain headaches and nosebleeds and strange poop!
But i have been feeling you alotmore moving and kicking around in there.
I talk to you alot little bean. I love you. We love YOU!
Posted by ripewithbaby at 09:35 am care to comment
christmas
ripewithbaby
Merry Christmas little bean! Today was Christmas me and your daddy had a great day. We woke up at 5 am which is unusually early and something miraculous happened!
You daddy was listening and had his head down on my belly and you kicked really hard! Its so cool!
Anyways you could actually see your kicking on the outside of my belly!
You get so very active and you respond the most to your daddy’s touch besides you responding to me . it really fills me with joy.
You got some presents too!
Azell Asilin Davis I have decided to call you since were not sure if you are boy or a girl so I use both names.
we really had a wonderful day the best christmas i have ever had
Posted by ripewithbaby at 01:54 pm care to comment
December 23rd, 2005
thank you
ripewithbaby
Little bean I have been having the absolute most wonderful dreams about you. Last night or yesterday sometime because I tend to nap a lot. I dreamed I was in my womb with you! Right there we were communicating like I do with my spirit guides the unspoken knowledge and communication that takes place between two in this way.
my pregnant belly 6 months
Now its way due time to thank my wonderful fabulous georgious kind open loving gentle perfect husband. Your daddy little bean is the best daddy out there. The best man ever.
He does everything in is power to keep us happy and healthy he does so much for us its really amazing how much he loves us.
My lovely husband thank you so much jonny for all that you do for us. I love you more than life its self and im thankful for everything we have. My love is eternal for you an dour child. Meaning forever and that nothing can change that not even time,because our love is timeless.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 11:17 am care to comment
December 22nd, 2005
dec 21 solistice
ripewithbaby
Happy Solistice!
Hello little one.
I love to write to you although I talk to you all day someday you may like to read these things and know I have always loved and cared for you , completely.
Yesterday we had an interesting day didn’t we? Emotions being strange yet stable in the instability. We managed to make it though smiling. That’s the important part little bean. That no matter the emotions they are emotions and one can conquer emotions let them be what they are don’t fight it go with it. Allow it . allow yourself to be what ever you feel you need to be or express.
As a child for me I don’t think I was allowed this freedom with of being condemned. This my little light of love you shall not experience form us.
You are your own unique individual made by me and your daddys very dna and source of all life fusing together as one to create your body. You being the one inside your body are unique and beautiful. We are here to help you grow and evolve in positive ways.
Little bean I have thought about calling you by your name but then I will have to call you two names because we are not positive that you are a girl but most certain.
We will decide soon. I promise. We have some major ones that are our favs.
Azerelle
Azell
Celestia
Boys names
Arel
Sage
Posted by ripewithbaby at 02:57 am care to comment
December 20th, 2005
25 weeks and counting…
ripewithbaby
Little bean, I cant believe that all this time has gone by and so quickly!
25 weeks is a milestone for sure , you are between 9 and 10 inches and growing in very surprising rates.
As I have found little bean, you have off days like the rest of us.
Some days you are really active, jumping poking and pushing around in there and moving it seems all day! And especially if I lay a certain way that you must not like because sometimes you punch and kick Really hard!
Other days you are more relaxed and you just take it easy.
Still eating tons of yogurt and pickles.
Your room is looking really awesome,moon,sun,stars,castle and such pretty things! You are going to love it!
We love you little bean, don’t ever forget!
Posted by ripewithbaby at 01:38 pm care to comment
December 16th, 2005
unleashed the wild
ripewithbaby
Wow I must say little bean you are growing quite strong these days tending to blast my in my tummy. It makes my giggle. I woke up at 6am.eek. because you deiced to play and I had the realization that wow, there is a human growing inside of my tum, that is like so weird. This baby can hear and feel everything I can wow! A little me heheheh! Look out universe we have unleashed the wild stuff!
today bean im gonna paint your room more
I cant believe im up before 2 pm that’s weird. Little one I hate mornings they make me feel sick every time I wake up in the morning I feel ill ive felt this way my whole life, destined to belong to the night.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 12:01 am 1 comments
December 15th, 2005
Comming in the 3rd trimester
ripewithbaby
The first trimester of pregnancy is well rather difficult or at least can be or tends to be. Food aversions, dizziness, morning sickness and feeling overall icky.
The second trimester you do indeed feel a pick me up in energy and feel more active than the first with energy and mood swings increasing until the last 2ond half.
Im noticing as im working my way to the last trimester here 3rd that it is similar to the first with the energy lacking, feet sweeling,back aches more like spinal pain, dizziness and really lacking the ability to do too much at one time before needing to sit or lay down. Braxton hicks contractions which start early and they are Painful!
Anyways, my new food love is yogart it seems to me that’s all I want to eat! Yogurt, apple juice and pickles are by far the winners in the food world as of now. with another craving for chicken again! The word fish makes my tummy shrivel. And the thought of bread and pasta is totally gross! Im still loving melon and pistachios J
Little bean your nursery is looking Fab! With frog princes and toadstools happy trees and cloud kingdoms its going to be the best nursery ! we are now just working on all the artsy details.hope u love it. Your daddy is painting the day time and im painting the night time, but of course it has to be day and night!
Posted by ripewithbaby at 09:32 am care to comment
December 13th, 2005
poopy people
ripewithbaby
I wanted to re cap on my day, besides doing a lot of running around and necessary things that had to be done I went out to a jazz band concert tonight and I had stopped at walgreens. Little one I have to tell you, you would not believe the strange looks and fingers pointing to my half open pants because im so pregnant with you I cant help it the rest of my pants fit my legs and butt but not my belly because little bean your sooo big now! This fat tall butchy looking older woman pointed and said you need to button your patns up you will get raped that way. I told her that she shouldn’t talk that way to strangers and that she didn’t know me as I walked away she said some snied comment and I looked back and told her that I was armed and dangerous in fount of a line of people. Obviously they didn’t know wht I meant but it shut them all up. Really im dangerous because I energy says cross my line and I will defend myself even to the death.
Grr. I had to have a little re cap on how insecure and ugly people seem to be.
I guees pregnant bellies upset fat people.
But then again fat people are always angry.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 12:21 pm care to comment
December 10th, 2005
techno lova
ripewithbaby
little one i have noted today that you LOVE techno!
yep thats right your little hands and feets just starting a moving in there like crazy! a litle rave in my womb lol.
I have felt really connected to you today i think because i was just in resting healing mode today and in that state of being that rreally connects us to one another.
we will have soooo much fun when you are born i cant wait, not only are we your parents but your best friends and best friends love to have fun togeather we will have so much fun!
dancing,sining, playing,painting walls,late nights eating organic yummies and lots of play
Posted by ripewithbaby at 07:35 am care to comment
December 9th, 2005
Dec 9
ripewithbaby
In 2 days starts the 24th week of our pregnancy.
Little bean let me tell you, we are doing so… much to prepare for you , but we know that theres not much really we can do to prepare ourselves for our arrival in a lot of ways.
I think about you all day and I wake up and touch my belly to let you know that I love you and that im thinking about you and hope that you are nice and cozy inside my womb.
The second trimester started off to a bumpy start around the 16th week is when I finally started to feel a little energy back into me but it never seemed to be a lot. I mean enough ot do dishes and laundry and then sit and relax. I have had allot of food aversions although all in different parts of our pregnancy.
When we fisrt found out we were graced enough to have you growing deep within me I was fasting!99 pounds, I was kind of scared because all I was drinking was water for about a week then juice with a week of salads in between. But I didn’t know why I was feeling so extremely hungry , it was because you needed food to grow. Although I love to fast I will not for your sake and even when your born I will continue to eat healthy so while I nurse you , you will be healthy.
At first I wanted to eat a lot of potatoes and extra sharp cheddar cheese.
I ate tons of fruit. Could NOT touch mushrooms and then I ate potatoes made in about 30 diffearnt ways. Then salmon was what I wanted and then it was totally my enemy and still is. Any fish makes me sick. Which is weird because im a sushi eater. Which I cant wait till we go to japan because we are gonna eat yummyfyied sushi which little one you wont eat directly but through my milk.
Anyways then cheese became the enemy which always is but sometimes it tastes good even though im filled with mucus. I hate milk and always have hated milk its gross.
I slept so very much little one it seemed that you took all my energy. The first trimester was a little rough because ididnt have full blown morning sickness it just lasted all day and I was throwing up stomach lining and liquid acidic stuff
Your daddy was and is so wonderful he helps so much and he made sure I had whatever food I wanted and takes so good care of us and cleaning when I don’t have the energy to do anything but eat and sleep.
The 3rd trimester starts in a coupple weeks wow! The last and final trimester of pregnancy.
We are so excited .
I have been feeling a little better than previously with my anemia but I hate heartburn and acid reflex now whee! Leg cramps and back pain headaches and nosebleeds and strange poop!
But i have been feeling you alotmore moving and kicking around in there.
I talk to you alot little bean. I love you. We love YOU!
Posted by ripewithbaby at 09:35 am care to comment
January 7th to December 27
January 7th, 2006
you have the best father
ripewithbaby
Little bean, I would like to tell you today just how amazing your daddy is.
Recently the last few days I have been bombarded with tidal wave size emotions and flashbacks of times long since past and your daddy has been there every step of the way and every waking second. He is so good to us. I know you will have so much fun together, he loves to play like me!
Im actually really astounded how much your father actually cares and loves us. He does every thing he can for us. And I do all I can for us too.
You have the best father that there is little bean!
Its an every day up and down battle mostly with food. When I m hungry I have to eat or else I feel sick then I fall into code red and then its apathy time where I don’t care what I eat or about anything else at that rate. I have a sort of food problem. Its not really an eating disorder because it just developed since I got pregnant. Normally I don’t eat that much and Im not a big food person.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 02:40 am 1 comments
January 3rd, 2006
A mothers prayer
ripewithbaby
What a mother’s wishes and prays:
Little bean over all I wish for you love. Love in your heart find it there and love all you can. Love the world you live in love the world you create love yourself love your family love above all. Sometimes when you grow up you will make mistakes don’t hate yourself for your choices good or bad. I want you to find love and over come anything you encounter.
I wish for you, happiness. That you live a bright wonderful life. Making everyone’s life more enriched by your very presence.
I wish for you to be safe and live a long and healthy life with little or no health complications.
I wish for you to follow your heart. I know I can not shelter you from the path I choose before you were conceived and paths like that are appealing I don’t regret but I wish for you to find a easier way through.
My little bean I don’t want you to hurt or to desire things that enslave you to the desire themselves. I pray you will find your way through light and love.
Though when you do fall off the path I wish I could prevent this but it will happen I pray you will always find your way back to yourself. Intact.
I do know as a mother it can be so hard. You don’t want to be over protective towards your children you want them to be free to be themselves and be free to experience what ever that child needs to expand but in the same breath you don’t want to see your child hurt or be in pain. You wish you could make a safe little world around them keeping them safe and warm from all pain and negativity so there would never be a sad day for them. But that is not how mortal life goes.
As im pregnant and now experiencing all kinds of emotions and feeling to certain things and experiences I feel bad time to time when I can not be the best emotional example when im upset I feel guilty I hope im not hurting our child. I dont want to be the one the blame to certain emotional conditional taking place right now in the womb.
I do try my best. i guees thats all a mother can do.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 11:16 am 1 comments
womb explorer
ripewithbaby
Little bean you make your way across the terrain of my womb and all its scenery that is probably very dark to see in there. You make your way across the right side of my womb then to the left side. You are quite the traveler already! That must be a hereditary thing.
Today my young one im sorry but it has been quite an emotional day for us. Its not normally so bad but somedays the volcano just erupts you know but it also feels much cleaner and better inside once all the old built of lava is now flowing below and not longer a part of us so to say.
Other than that we are ok hunh.
Day 2 of trying to stay on a better diet while pregnant(which is not easy) it seems I tend to tell myself its ok to eat whatever I want even though it may be really bad for me. Not really bad but not the best of choices of food.
Almost broke my diet yesterday but I did not!
Today ive very good. Ive had cheerios with natural cane sugar , fruit and a salad.
Plus you know a lot of apple juice.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 08:46 am 1 comments
January 1st, 2006
Happy New Year
ripewithbaby
2006
Happy New Year! There’s about 3 months left little bean and we will all meet face to face for the first time.Me and your daddy had a lovely new year. Its nice to be home. This is my first sober new year in about 10 years. Im proud of myself.
Drinking Sparking Grape Juice and Sparkling Apple Cider.
2006 shall be the best year yet.
There has been no better year 2005 it had its rough times and very dark times and yet it brought to me my souls true desires.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 01:05 pm 1 comments
December 31st, 2005
week 27
ripewithbaby
Little bean… you are growing so much! You are at a full 15 inches from toes to crown.
That’s really big! Well compared to the rest of your previous growth .i remember when I was measuring you when you were the size of a pea!
Anyways week 27 omg, so so close to the 30th week!
Next week you will start to turn for birth preparation. Wow. Time has passed so quickly!
You are nestled so cozy like in there , we can see you pushing and poking and moving around in there my belly pokes out and you can see when you push on the walls in there, its so amazing! I have been trying to keep laying on my left side the side you are supposed to sleep on but I tend to lay on my right side and even back! I know that’s a no no. I don’t mean to I wake up that way. You rest on all my internal organs and I wake up with the WORSE backpain possible and I mean the worse. Normally I would probably take a pain pill such a valium to kill the pain. But I m a good mama I would do nothing of the sort I wont even drink caffeine! Or be in the same room as a smoker. I feel like you don’t really have the choice right now to choose what you experience so its all up to me to do that for both of us to keep us healthy and happy and not put either of us especially you in harms way.
Ok so my diet has not been totally vegan or vegetarian I do indeed put the cause on my pregnancy craving chicken but less and less. I will soon be back to my normal diet.
Ok so I know im a food binger and being pregnant has screwed up my bad eating habits darn it! I fast and binge don’t eat an binge. Ok so I know thats not exactly good but that’s ok. Im eating regularly and trying to get used too it.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 07:01 am care to comment
December 29th, 2005
cloustroum
ripewithbaby
Ok ok I know your saying that I have already posted today I know but I thik this deserves its own post. You don’t get your milk in until about 2 days after you give birth but before that you get something called colustroum and its vitamin and nutrient rich food pure yummies. Wow this is so cool. Its kind of strage watching my nipples leak out this yellow white substance. Not to be gross but its rather awesome!
Posted by ripewithbaby at 12:32 pm 1 comments
dec 28 baby stuff
ripewithbaby
Baby stuff! Yea. Toady little bean me and your grandma went and picked out a lot of groovy stuff for you my little star your baby shower which is coming up very soon! O my how the time has really flew by us. The excitement is almost unbearable until we have you in our loving arms. So the nursery is almost complete we picked out a crib comforter set with moons and stars really cute ones not the typical ones either.
little one you are so precious..
Posted by ripewithbaby at 10:22 am care to comment
December 27th, 2005
dec 27
ripewithbaby
As things internally rapidly change I feel myself kind of caught up in between it all. Riding on a ship being tugged and torn by the waves at hand that will shortly pass. Today is a interesting day for being pregnant. Not so much up and down just emotional, but not in a bad way, emotions surfacing from the full spectrum of emotions and not just the moody ones. Little bean I fully respect what is taking place deep within me although sometimes I don’t understand exactly all of the details of this transformation its just as new to you as it is to me. You are 10 inches now and your eyes are open and you pack quite a punch these days. I love you. I love myself. After all the discomforts of pregnancy I love it none the less. I love your daddy so much he is so supportive in everyway imaginable and im thankful. i love you both with all my being.forever.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 04:27 pm care to comment
ripewithbaby
Little bean today i have been just sleepin and relaxing all day meanwhile...
you and i have been playing touch tag! you kick me HARD and maake my belly move and twitch visiable from the outside and i tap and poke you back and we just go back and forth. Azell Aslin you are fabulous! We love you so much! your daddy last night put this high powered flash light on my belly and you respond so quickly. its fun. i would love to have seen in my womb with lots of light.so thats such a gift!
my diet is changing again.
all i want is fruit and vegggies and thats about it o besids cookies lol
Posted by ripewithbaby at 06:09 am care to comment
you have the best father
ripewithbaby
Little bean, I would like to tell you today just how amazing your daddy is.
Recently the last few days I have been bombarded with tidal wave size emotions and flashbacks of times long since past and your daddy has been there every step of the way and every waking second. He is so good to us. I know you will have so much fun together, he loves to play like me!
Im actually really astounded how much your father actually cares and loves us. He does every thing he can for us. And I do all I can for us too.
You have the best father that there is little bean!
Its an every day up and down battle mostly with food. When I m hungry I have to eat or else I feel sick then I fall into code red and then its apathy time where I don’t care what I eat or about anything else at that rate. I have a sort of food problem. Its not really an eating disorder because it just developed since I got pregnant. Normally I don’t eat that much and Im not a big food person.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 02:40 am 1 comments
January 3rd, 2006
A mothers prayer
ripewithbaby
What a mother’s wishes and prays:
Little bean over all I wish for you love. Love in your heart find it there and love all you can. Love the world you live in love the world you create love yourself love your family love above all. Sometimes when you grow up you will make mistakes don’t hate yourself for your choices good or bad. I want you to find love and over come anything you encounter.
I wish for you, happiness. That you live a bright wonderful life. Making everyone’s life more enriched by your very presence.
I wish for you to be safe and live a long and healthy life with little or no health complications.
I wish for you to follow your heart. I know I can not shelter you from the path I choose before you were conceived and paths like that are appealing I don’t regret but I wish for you to find a easier way through.
My little bean I don’t want you to hurt or to desire things that enslave you to the desire themselves. I pray you will find your way through light and love.
Though when you do fall off the path I wish I could prevent this but it will happen I pray you will always find your way back to yourself. Intact.
I do know as a mother it can be so hard. You don’t want to be over protective towards your children you want them to be free to be themselves and be free to experience what ever that child needs to expand but in the same breath you don’t want to see your child hurt or be in pain. You wish you could make a safe little world around them keeping them safe and warm from all pain and negativity so there would never be a sad day for them. But that is not how mortal life goes.
As im pregnant and now experiencing all kinds of emotions and feeling to certain things and experiences I feel bad time to time when I can not be the best emotional example when im upset I feel guilty I hope im not hurting our child. I dont want to be the one the blame to certain emotional conditional taking place right now in the womb.
I do try my best. i guees thats all a mother can do.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 11:16 am 1 comments
womb explorer
ripewithbaby
Little bean you make your way across the terrain of my womb and all its scenery that is probably very dark to see in there. You make your way across the right side of my womb then to the left side. You are quite the traveler already! That must be a hereditary thing.
Today my young one im sorry but it has been quite an emotional day for us. Its not normally so bad but somedays the volcano just erupts you know but it also feels much cleaner and better inside once all the old built of lava is now flowing below and not longer a part of us so to say.
Other than that we are ok hunh.
Day 2 of trying to stay on a better diet while pregnant(which is not easy) it seems I tend to tell myself its ok to eat whatever I want even though it may be really bad for me. Not really bad but not the best of choices of food.
Almost broke my diet yesterday but I did not!
Today ive very good. Ive had cheerios with natural cane sugar , fruit and a salad.
Plus you know a lot of apple juice.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 08:46 am 1 comments
January 1st, 2006
Happy New Year
ripewithbaby
2006
Happy New Year! There’s about 3 months left little bean and we will all meet face to face for the first time.Me and your daddy had a lovely new year. Its nice to be home. This is my first sober new year in about 10 years. Im proud of myself.
Drinking Sparking Grape Juice and Sparkling Apple Cider.
2006 shall be the best year yet.
There has been no better year 2005 it had its rough times and very dark times and yet it brought to me my souls true desires.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 01:05 pm 1 comments
December 31st, 2005
week 27
ripewithbaby
Little bean… you are growing so much! You are at a full 15 inches from toes to crown.
That’s really big! Well compared to the rest of your previous growth .i remember when I was measuring you when you were the size of a pea!
Anyways week 27 omg, so so close to the 30th week!
Next week you will start to turn for birth preparation. Wow. Time has passed so quickly!
You are nestled so cozy like in there , we can see you pushing and poking and moving around in there my belly pokes out and you can see when you push on the walls in there, its so amazing! I have been trying to keep laying on my left side the side you are supposed to sleep on but I tend to lay on my right side and even back! I know that’s a no no. I don’t mean to I wake up that way. You rest on all my internal organs and I wake up with the WORSE backpain possible and I mean the worse. Normally I would probably take a pain pill such a valium to kill the pain. But I m a good mama I would do nothing of the sort I wont even drink caffeine! Or be in the same room as a smoker. I feel like you don’t really have the choice right now to choose what you experience so its all up to me to do that for both of us to keep us healthy and happy and not put either of us especially you in harms way.
Ok so my diet has not been totally vegan or vegetarian I do indeed put the cause on my pregnancy craving chicken but less and less. I will soon be back to my normal diet.
Ok so I know im a food binger and being pregnant has screwed up my bad eating habits darn it! I fast and binge don’t eat an binge. Ok so I know thats not exactly good but that’s ok. Im eating regularly and trying to get used too it.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 07:01 am care to comment
December 29th, 2005
cloustroum
ripewithbaby
Ok ok I know your saying that I have already posted today I know but I thik this deserves its own post. You don’t get your milk in until about 2 days after you give birth but before that you get something called colustroum and its vitamin and nutrient rich food pure yummies. Wow this is so cool. Its kind of strage watching my nipples leak out this yellow white substance. Not to be gross but its rather awesome!
Posted by ripewithbaby at 12:32 pm 1 comments
dec 28 baby stuff
ripewithbaby
Baby stuff! Yea. Toady little bean me and your grandma went and picked out a lot of groovy stuff for you my little star your baby shower which is coming up very soon! O my how the time has really flew by us. The excitement is almost unbearable until we have you in our loving arms. So the nursery is almost complete we picked out a crib comforter set with moons and stars really cute ones not the typical ones either.
little one you are so precious..
Posted by ripewithbaby at 10:22 am care to comment
December 27th, 2005
dec 27
ripewithbaby
As things internally rapidly change I feel myself kind of caught up in between it all. Riding on a ship being tugged and torn by the waves at hand that will shortly pass. Today is a interesting day for being pregnant. Not so much up and down just emotional, but not in a bad way, emotions surfacing from the full spectrum of emotions and not just the moody ones. Little bean I fully respect what is taking place deep within me although sometimes I don’t understand exactly all of the details of this transformation its just as new to you as it is to me. You are 10 inches now and your eyes are open and you pack quite a punch these days. I love you. I love myself. After all the discomforts of pregnancy I love it none the less. I love your daddy so much he is so supportive in everyway imaginable and im thankful. i love you both with all my being.forever.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 04:27 pm care to comment
ripewithbaby
Little bean today i have been just sleepin and relaxing all day meanwhile...
you and i have been playing touch tag! you kick me HARD and maake my belly move and twitch visiable from the outside and i tap and poke you back and we just go back and forth. Azell Aslin you are fabulous! We love you so much! your daddy last night put this high powered flash light on my belly and you respond so quickly. its fun. i would love to have seen in my womb with lots of light.so thats such a gift!
my diet is changing again.
all i want is fruit and vegggies and thats about it o besids cookies lol
Posted by ripewithbaby at 06:09 am care to comment
Febuary posts and late Januarys
Doctors are criminal
ripewithbaby
Let me tell you the Medical Establishment is one if not thee most criminal operations that is legalized. I cant believe the way they take advantage of us, people in general.
We should be able to get medical treatment for a fair price. Our government SHOULD pay for each and every one of our doctor’s bills and medication. All of us should be given the same equal treatment, not only the rich should be able to keep themselves healthy. Anyways who wants to go to the doctor in the western hemisphere any ways. They can’t even treat the cause just the symptom that is ailing us. They don’t dig deeper nor integrate spirituality within their practice. They actually reject it, by teaching us not to listen to our body and to consult them for every little thing. Read a label on just about anything,” Consult a doctor first” it’s ridiculous! We are not even encouraged to think for ourselves about our own bodies and health.
There is something horribly wrong with this establishment.
I have never been one to go to the doctor even when sick. I fight it out, your body can self heal its self. I have even not gone to the doctor for phenomena, I know which I have been told is quite dangerous but still I figured it out, my body figured it out. You stop eating and drink plenty of fluids change your thought process put yourself back in check and you will be fine.
There are some cases when going to a doctor may seem to be the best thing to do. If you need stitches or true emergency care that you know you do not have the ability to do at home due to the lack of proper resources and know how to fix the problem.
Pregnancy on the other hand is not a illness or a extreme emergency calling for stitches and bandages. It is the most beautiful thing, the woman has the ability to house another human within her body. Gives that baby nurturing and love within her womb. When the time comes, that child begins to ripen and when ripe fully that baby will emerge.
It’s not a case to freak out, get scared totally and give away your power completely by giving up and handing yourself over to doctors that will only make the stress worse!
Birth is a natural process as is digestion, sometimes digestion needs an aid so does pregnancy on an occasion. But if you are healthy and have taken care of yourself your body knows how to birth a baby!
Doctors want to sterilize the whole entire experience. Taking away from its natural grander and the power it holds. At the threshold of life there is much power to tap into.
When you go to a doctors office for a pregnancy visit, (I have only hone one time, one time!) first before you even see the doctor they make you fill out lovely paperwork, not just any paperwork, papers stating that you wave your rights and you agree to sing off your care into the doctors hands and nurses hands for the best “care for you and your unborn baby” they make it sound so important. Well I didn’t sign my rights away and made it very clear that it was going to be me calling all the shots not anyone else.
Once you are shown to your room a crazy cranky nurse will ask you a whole bunch of questions and try to make you feel guilty when you say what you really feel.
“I just came here to get blood work done and I will not be choosing to use one of your doctors for my pregnancy care, can we just do the blood work now or what?” that being my whole attitude defiantly was not appreciated by the nurse. That I m not giving “proper” care to myself or my baby because I don’t willingly give myself up to them to do a million tests on me get me in some stupid gown and put me on stirrups and rape me of my dignity.
Birth is not seen as a natural process either. They see it as an emergency and why? Well first off because they want that money. They make so much money off of you its not even fathomable. If you choose to do your own prenatal care and choose to birth your own baby then a lot of people will be out on a lot of money. There is a lot of money to be had if you did go to the hospital. Not that they really care in the first place about your well being. Choosing your own prenatal care is the best option.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 07:05 am care to comment
February 4th, 2006
Week 32
ripewithbaby
Dear little bean our spark,
We are nearing in on the 32 week of your growth and if you didn’t know the medical establishment has broken pregnancy down into 40 weeks you could be born at 36 weeks to 42 weeks really with no problem. So that means its so close until I can hold you in my arms. You have been quiet the last few days but you still manage to poke around and respond to touch.
Things will be so wonderful to have you here. As a perent its so important for me to tell you that not only am I your mother and our father your father but we will to be your best friends through it all. When friends fail and what not we will always be here for you. To listen to you, to love you and to accept you and the path you have chosen for yourself. I want you to know that you can tell me your darkest secrets and worries and they are safe with me. i don’t want you to run away form me, us. We are not here to condemn you.
It is our moral and spiritual responsibility to guide you along. Keep you safe. Love you and see that you find your way.
Because we don’t know our birth parents or family you shall not know your other biological family, so we are all you’ve got in that sense. We must stick together. Now family is whom that has been there from the beginning regardless but I wanted you to know how special it is for us to actually for once in our lives to know our own blood, something most other people take for granted.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 11:08 pm care to comment
February 1st, 2006
week 31
ripewithbaby
This week pregnancy has taken a turn from slightly uncomfortable to extremely uncomfortable! I really do enjoy being pregnant underneath it all and in the end I know its all worth every discomfort and pain but tell me that when im trying to walk up the stairs and finally make it and then I m faint and out of breath and I have to go to the bathroom because my bladder is the size of a pea and I have outrageous heartburn and acid reflux and I try and lay down and I cant get comfy because my belly is so big!
Eek! Ok so that’s one way to look at it on the other hand. I do enjoy getting plenty of rest I slept till 4:30 pm today! Yep that’s right I slept all day!
Im not one of those happy stinking morning people, that have a huge smile on their face and are so damn perky you want to knock their coffee out of their hands. Mornings actually make me feel nauseous, sick to my stomach, I have a headache in the morning and my eyes hurt I can barley open them or focus them in the early bright light. Even if I get plenty of sleep not affected by drinking or anything especially now I m pregnant. Its just mornings really are not my thing.
Little bean you seem to be active the most at night and early morning when I m still awake form 10 pm to 5 am especially around 3am you are active. Now days you don’t bounce and twirl around like you once did your space is running out! You touch and poke now and stretch it seems like. You make my belly look like a mountain when you stretch.
Im really hyper sensitive to scents and food now. Nothing seems to satisfy me, I don’t want to eat I have to force myself to eat something.
I love apple juice more than water right now. And even sprite or 7up I don’t usually drink pop but it soothes my tummy with its tiny bubbles.
I don’t really want to eat unless I eat out because then if I don’t like it I send it back and order something else that I do like and I don’t have to cook or wash dishes.
So your nursery little spark is done except for the sun to yet be painted it will probably be the last thing to do. We moved well your daddy moved your furniture and hung up groovy door beads and put the Berber carpet in. its looks so fabulous! The best room ever!
Posted by ripewithbaby at 10:31 am care to comment
January 29th, 2006
Little Spark
ripewithbaby
O yea, let me tell you what I have been doing the past few days, besides having major emotional breakdowns (the winter I think)…. Well absolutely nothing! Besides working on my ripewithbaby.com website which keeps screwing up because that server is a piece of crap I work with. Anyways… I have been sleeping, eating, resting, working online maybe even up long enough to water the plants and back to my nice comfy bed with a lot of blankies and pillows.
My lovely little bean you have been very active on the other hand. We have been communicating a lot more recently the past week. I have been dreaming of you and feeling your presence more strongly, you must really be soaking into your new body right now( so cool.)
I went though my parents attic which is where all my old stuff is stored and the whole attic is my stuff mostly, that’s a lot of stuff!!! Well I have been going through my childhood stuffed animals and stuff I had when I was a wee little one myself. Im bringing home only my favorite toys I know you will love them too.
Some names that we love are:
Azell (a name I had in a dream being whispered in my sleep)
Celestia (a name that is always beautiful
Brigit (goddess)
Isadora(goddess)
Gwendolyn
Evora
Boys names are much harder:
Asilin
Gabriel
We figure that you will name yourself,really and we will catch on to what you wish your name to be.well anyways just resting. 2 months seems so close. We are excited!
We love you little spark!
Posted by ripewithbaby at 01:55 pm care to comment
January 26th, 2006
taking care of myself
ripewithbaby
Working my to 31 weeks! Wow babies are born anywhere from 38 weeks to 42 weeks. I m right in the last stretch of pregnancy.
These days the fatigue is kicking in. You are not just tired but exhausted from doing maybe one everyday thing like vacuuming. I have anemia which sucks the energy right out of me because the baby is pulling all my iron reserves that are already naturally low.
So I get a lot of rest. That’s what I have been doing, taking care of myself.
Little bean, you have been kicking me in my ribs now, it feels funny when you are right underneath my right rib cage it feels so weird yet so awesome!
So you move around a lot punching and kicking but I m sure your running out of room in there.
I take it easy, nice and slow. I cant get up as I once did in a drop of a witches hat. I have to slow down ,which is not easy to an active Aries like myself.
Little bean your room is almost done! Wow , we have came such a long way. The mural is almost complete, the shelves are up thanks to your most groovy awesome daddy.he did such a great job!
You got a car seat ,your first goddie off the baby registry. And it’s a nice cute one!I picked out the diaper bag I like,not some weird babyish one , but one that looks like a normal handbag and will grow with you and not like those really cutesy wootsie ones that are outgrown easily.
Anyways im doing great and just enjoying being pregnant and pampered.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 06:42 am care to comment
January 19th, 2006
almost 30 weeks!
ripewithbaby
Posted by ripewithbaby at 06:28 am care to comment
January 17th, 2006
Cravings
ripewithbaby
I have been craving so much sweet stuff its off the charts!
I made Sweet Southern Collard Greens tonight how yummy! It really hit the spot. Little bean we are going to make a cook book for pregnant mommies inspired by you! Because all theses yummy things I crave, like collard greens and pineapple and peaches mixed. Yum.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 06:32 am 1 comments
January 15th, 2006
Week 29...getting closer!
ripewithbaby
Week 29 ,almost there! So now that we are in the 3rd tri. Things have changed as you grow ever so bigger week by week little bean. I have had no real problems with this pregnancy. But the 3rd tri changes everything! I have been having some severe back pain because you roll around on my nerve endings and cause my legs to feel funny, leg cramps from hell, heartburn even from water! My food comes up little one you push on my stomach and it causes my food to start its way back up the tube!
My food choices at this time are growing ever so more picky! Nothing seems to please me food wise. since the new year I started my new diet and i feel like I have been
de toxing from that it has been 14 days now. Since I cant fast, I Can change my diet!
I have been really good, no meat no overly nasty foods such as processed things.
I have been eating a lot of chocolate I admit. and not the raw kind either ( woops)
Anyways… other than that everything is going great.
I have not wrote in a while besides being very busy with my other web sites and normal life I have been extremely exhausted. The 3rd tri makes you so SLEEPY!
Tired I can sleep like 18 hours non stop. I m just so tired. My anemia doesn’t help this either.
Little bean we have your nursery almost completed. We have shelves to add to the closet a new ceiling fan and some other things fro you room and it will be done! I bought a whole bunch of stuff off e bay for like 50 $ I got a extra crib set ( we need extras because I get bored, no really ,because they get dirty so fast!)like 100 toy pieces, clothes and little play gym thingy.i normally wont use used things but this was an exception because there was so much stuff! You will love it. I saw this baby grand piano for little kids at toys r us I will so have to buy you one little bean when your around 2 or something. I had one around that age and i loved it!
SO … anyways…ive been sleeping,eating ( if I can make my mind up) and writing A LOT.
Your about 16 or 17 inches depending on your growth, and about 3 pounds. More body fat is beginning to deposit under your skin (whiter fat) and that’s an energy source that would explain your busyness! Now your space in there is getting smaller so now I really no feel your elbow knees and stuff. You respond to a lot of different kinds of stimulus. Such as when I m upset you get get a kicking but in a different way I feel. Some times I feel like you just want to play and I will poke you back!
Posted by ripewithbaby at 01:25 am 1 comments
ripewithbaby
Let me tell you the Medical Establishment is one if not thee most criminal operations that is legalized. I cant believe the way they take advantage of us, people in general.
We should be able to get medical treatment for a fair price. Our government SHOULD pay for each and every one of our doctor’s bills and medication. All of us should be given the same equal treatment, not only the rich should be able to keep themselves healthy. Anyways who wants to go to the doctor in the western hemisphere any ways. They can’t even treat the cause just the symptom that is ailing us. They don’t dig deeper nor integrate spirituality within their practice. They actually reject it, by teaching us not to listen to our body and to consult them for every little thing. Read a label on just about anything,” Consult a doctor first” it’s ridiculous! We are not even encouraged to think for ourselves about our own bodies and health.
There is something horribly wrong with this establishment.
I have never been one to go to the doctor even when sick. I fight it out, your body can self heal its self. I have even not gone to the doctor for phenomena, I know which I have been told is quite dangerous but still I figured it out, my body figured it out. You stop eating and drink plenty of fluids change your thought process put yourself back in check and you will be fine.
There are some cases when going to a doctor may seem to be the best thing to do. If you need stitches or true emergency care that you know you do not have the ability to do at home due to the lack of proper resources and know how to fix the problem.
Pregnancy on the other hand is not a illness or a extreme emergency calling for stitches and bandages. It is the most beautiful thing, the woman has the ability to house another human within her body. Gives that baby nurturing and love within her womb. When the time comes, that child begins to ripen and when ripe fully that baby will emerge.
It’s not a case to freak out, get scared totally and give away your power completely by giving up and handing yourself over to doctors that will only make the stress worse!
Birth is a natural process as is digestion, sometimes digestion needs an aid so does pregnancy on an occasion. But if you are healthy and have taken care of yourself your body knows how to birth a baby!
Doctors want to sterilize the whole entire experience. Taking away from its natural grander and the power it holds. At the threshold of life there is much power to tap into.
When you go to a doctors office for a pregnancy visit, (I have only hone one time, one time!) first before you even see the doctor they make you fill out lovely paperwork, not just any paperwork, papers stating that you wave your rights and you agree to sing off your care into the doctors hands and nurses hands for the best “care for you and your unborn baby” they make it sound so important. Well I didn’t sign my rights away and made it very clear that it was going to be me calling all the shots not anyone else.
Once you are shown to your room a crazy cranky nurse will ask you a whole bunch of questions and try to make you feel guilty when you say what you really feel.
“I just came here to get blood work done and I will not be choosing to use one of your doctors for my pregnancy care, can we just do the blood work now or what?” that being my whole attitude defiantly was not appreciated by the nurse. That I m not giving “proper” care to myself or my baby because I don’t willingly give myself up to them to do a million tests on me get me in some stupid gown and put me on stirrups and rape me of my dignity.
Birth is not seen as a natural process either. They see it as an emergency and why? Well first off because they want that money. They make so much money off of you its not even fathomable. If you choose to do your own prenatal care and choose to birth your own baby then a lot of people will be out on a lot of money. There is a lot of money to be had if you did go to the hospital. Not that they really care in the first place about your well being. Choosing your own prenatal care is the best option.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 07:05 am care to comment
February 4th, 2006
Week 32
ripewithbaby
Dear little bean our spark,
We are nearing in on the 32 week of your growth and if you didn’t know the medical establishment has broken pregnancy down into 40 weeks you could be born at 36 weeks to 42 weeks really with no problem. So that means its so close until I can hold you in my arms. You have been quiet the last few days but you still manage to poke around and respond to touch.
Things will be so wonderful to have you here. As a perent its so important for me to tell you that not only am I your mother and our father your father but we will to be your best friends through it all. When friends fail and what not we will always be here for you. To listen to you, to love you and to accept you and the path you have chosen for yourself. I want you to know that you can tell me your darkest secrets and worries and they are safe with me. i don’t want you to run away form me, us. We are not here to condemn you.
It is our moral and spiritual responsibility to guide you along. Keep you safe. Love you and see that you find your way.
Because we don’t know our birth parents or family you shall not know your other biological family, so we are all you’ve got in that sense. We must stick together. Now family is whom that has been there from the beginning regardless but I wanted you to know how special it is for us to actually for once in our lives to know our own blood, something most other people take for granted.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 11:08 pm care to comment
February 1st, 2006
week 31
ripewithbaby
This week pregnancy has taken a turn from slightly uncomfortable to extremely uncomfortable! I really do enjoy being pregnant underneath it all and in the end I know its all worth every discomfort and pain but tell me that when im trying to walk up the stairs and finally make it and then I m faint and out of breath and I have to go to the bathroom because my bladder is the size of a pea and I have outrageous heartburn and acid reflux and I try and lay down and I cant get comfy because my belly is so big!
Eek! Ok so that’s one way to look at it on the other hand. I do enjoy getting plenty of rest I slept till 4:30 pm today! Yep that’s right I slept all day!
Im not one of those happy stinking morning people, that have a huge smile on their face and are so damn perky you want to knock their coffee out of their hands. Mornings actually make me feel nauseous, sick to my stomach, I have a headache in the morning and my eyes hurt I can barley open them or focus them in the early bright light. Even if I get plenty of sleep not affected by drinking or anything especially now I m pregnant. Its just mornings really are not my thing.
Little bean you seem to be active the most at night and early morning when I m still awake form 10 pm to 5 am especially around 3am you are active. Now days you don’t bounce and twirl around like you once did your space is running out! You touch and poke now and stretch it seems like. You make my belly look like a mountain when you stretch.
Im really hyper sensitive to scents and food now. Nothing seems to satisfy me, I don’t want to eat I have to force myself to eat something.
I love apple juice more than water right now. And even sprite or 7up I don’t usually drink pop but it soothes my tummy with its tiny bubbles.
I don’t really want to eat unless I eat out because then if I don’t like it I send it back and order something else that I do like and I don’t have to cook or wash dishes.
So your nursery little spark is done except for the sun to yet be painted it will probably be the last thing to do. We moved well your daddy moved your furniture and hung up groovy door beads and put the Berber carpet in. its looks so fabulous! The best room ever!
Posted by ripewithbaby at 10:31 am care to comment
January 29th, 2006
Little Spark
ripewithbaby
O yea, let me tell you what I have been doing the past few days, besides having major emotional breakdowns (the winter I think)…. Well absolutely nothing! Besides working on my ripewithbaby.com website which keeps screwing up because that server is a piece of crap I work with. Anyways… I have been sleeping, eating, resting, working online maybe even up long enough to water the plants and back to my nice comfy bed with a lot of blankies and pillows.
My lovely little bean you have been very active on the other hand. We have been communicating a lot more recently the past week. I have been dreaming of you and feeling your presence more strongly, you must really be soaking into your new body right now( so cool.)
I went though my parents attic which is where all my old stuff is stored and the whole attic is my stuff mostly, that’s a lot of stuff!!! Well I have been going through my childhood stuffed animals and stuff I had when I was a wee little one myself. Im bringing home only my favorite toys I know you will love them too.
Some names that we love are:
Azell (a name I had in a dream being whispered in my sleep)
Celestia (a name that is always beautiful
Brigit (goddess)
Isadora(goddess)
Gwendolyn
Evora
Boys names are much harder:
Asilin
Gabriel
We figure that you will name yourself,really and we will catch on to what you wish your name to be.well anyways just resting. 2 months seems so close. We are excited!
We love you little spark!
Posted by ripewithbaby at 01:55 pm care to comment
January 26th, 2006
taking care of myself
ripewithbaby
Working my to 31 weeks! Wow babies are born anywhere from 38 weeks to 42 weeks. I m right in the last stretch of pregnancy.
These days the fatigue is kicking in. You are not just tired but exhausted from doing maybe one everyday thing like vacuuming. I have anemia which sucks the energy right out of me because the baby is pulling all my iron reserves that are already naturally low.
So I get a lot of rest. That’s what I have been doing, taking care of myself.
Little bean, you have been kicking me in my ribs now, it feels funny when you are right underneath my right rib cage it feels so weird yet so awesome!
So you move around a lot punching and kicking but I m sure your running out of room in there.
I take it easy, nice and slow. I cant get up as I once did in a drop of a witches hat. I have to slow down ,which is not easy to an active Aries like myself.
Little bean your room is almost done! Wow , we have came such a long way. The mural is almost complete, the shelves are up thanks to your most groovy awesome daddy.he did such a great job!
You got a car seat ,your first goddie off the baby registry. And it’s a nice cute one!I picked out the diaper bag I like,not some weird babyish one , but one that looks like a normal handbag and will grow with you and not like those really cutesy wootsie ones that are outgrown easily.
Anyways im doing great and just enjoying being pregnant and pampered.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 06:42 am care to comment
January 19th, 2006
almost 30 weeks!
ripewithbaby
Posted by ripewithbaby at 06:28 am care to comment
January 17th, 2006
Cravings
ripewithbaby
I have been craving so much sweet stuff its off the charts!
I made Sweet Southern Collard Greens tonight how yummy! It really hit the spot. Little bean we are going to make a cook book for pregnant mommies inspired by you! Because all theses yummy things I crave, like collard greens and pineapple and peaches mixed. Yum.
Posted by ripewithbaby at 06:32 am 1 comments
January 15th, 2006
Week 29...getting closer!
ripewithbaby
Week 29 ,almost there! So now that we are in the 3rd tri. Things have changed as you grow ever so bigger week by week little bean. I have had no real problems with this pregnancy. But the 3rd tri changes everything! I have been having some severe back pain because you roll around on my nerve endings and cause my legs to feel funny, leg cramps from hell, heartburn even from water! My food comes up little one you push on my stomach and it causes my food to start its way back up the tube!
My food choices at this time are growing ever so more picky! Nothing seems to please me food wise. since the new year I started my new diet and i feel like I have been
de toxing from that it has been 14 days now. Since I cant fast, I Can change my diet!
I have been really good, no meat no overly nasty foods such as processed things.
I have been eating a lot of chocolate I admit. and not the raw kind either ( woops)
Anyways… other than that everything is going great.
I have not wrote in a while besides being very busy with my other web sites and normal life I have been extremely exhausted. The 3rd tri makes you so SLEEPY!
Tired I can sleep like 18 hours non stop. I m just so tired. My anemia doesn’t help this either.
Little bean we have your nursery almost completed. We have shelves to add to the closet a new ceiling fan and some other things fro you room and it will be done! I bought a whole bunch of stuff off e bay for like 50 $ I got a extra crib set ( we need extras because I get bored, no really ,because they get dirty so fast!)like 100 toy pieces, clothes and little play gym thingy.i normally wont use used things but this was an exception because there was so much stuff! You will love it. I saw this baby grand piano for little kids at toys r us I will so have to buy you one little bean when your around 2 or something. I had one around that age and i loved it!
SO … anyways…ive been sleeping,eating ( if I can make my mind up) and writing A LOT.
Your about 16 or 17 inches depending on your growth, and about 3 pounds. More body fat is beginning to deposit under your skin (whiter fat) and that’s an energy source that would explain your busyness! Now your space in there is getting smaller so now I really no feel your elbow knees and stuff. You respond to a lot of different kinds of stimulus. Such as when I m upset you get get a kicking but in a different way I feel. Some times I feel like you just want to play and I will poke you back!
Posted by ripewithbaby at 01:25 am 1 comments
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